somewhatdeadly
one more day
- Jun 6, 2025
- 96
I would normally consider myself too low-functioning to work a job, but recently my parents found a part-time job for me which they threaten to kick me out if i dont go. Even though it's only part-time, I find it incredibly exhausting, and it takes up most of my day. It has left me feeling very unhappy, and I've been having thoughts about dying. When I'm able to spend my time however I want, I feel much better about life. even though it's far from how a "normal" person would feel like.
This job is only temporary, and afterward I'll have to return to college. But after that, I feel like I won't have any way out. I believe I'll have to work every single day for the rest of my life. Thinking about that makes me feel much more suicidal. i mean i already am but this is triggering. since it's taking away the comfort and forcing me to do something. also i know that i won't own my bussines or get a comfortable self-employed job or anything. too lazy/dumb for that. might come off as immature but honestly that's what i feel. no way people work for 30-40 years or more every single day.
This job is only temporary, and afterward I'll have to return to college. But after that, I feel like I won't have any way out. I believe I'll have to work every single day for the rest of my life. Thinking about that makes me feel much more suicidal. i mean i already am but this is triggering. since it's taking away the comfort and forcing me to do something. also i know that i won't own my bussines or get a comfortable self-employed job or anything. too lazy/dumb for that. might come off as immature but honestly that's what i feel. no way people work for 30-40 years or more every single day.
