The end of the line pardner…. For me anyways.

[knion]

Hey!
I haven't really posted much here, but when I have they've been weird and drunk posts.

this post is different.

I have decided to end my life tonight. I just wanted to share it somewhere.

I have lit 4 charcoal bbq's, I bought some ice earlier today and I have two buckets at my disposal

I am going to pour the charcoal (after about an hour of burning) into the smaller bucket and the ice into the bigger one. Then I will put the small bucket into the big one and then lock myself in my car with the buckets.

I'm an extremely cynical person. And I think what led me here is my philosophical ideologies and the fact that I just don't want to work for the rest of my life.

I have been around for 21 years, and I think that's about enough for me.

I'm sorry if I didn't post this in the right place, but I just want to thank people and places like sanctioned suicide for helping me learn how best I could peacefully (or as close as I can get to peaceful) leave my life behind.
Thank you all so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

If this is your decision, then I wish you peace.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

It's probably your informed decision…. I wish you didn't have to go, but if that's what you truly desire, I hope your journey will be peaceful and safe.

 

[knion]

Thanks so much guys! It really means a lot!
I'm in the car right now, playing my CTB playlist drinking some nice vodka and lemonade. It's nice

 

[Midgardsorm]

I wish you eternal peace. I don't know much about this method, but I believe you already researched everything.

Know that it's alright to postpone if you wish. You will still have everything with you and will be able to leave at any time.

If you decides to leave, know that you will be missed.

Rest well, your light will never dim.

 

[leaf4]

When I come to the end of the road
And the sun has set for me
I want no rites in a gloom filled room
Why cry for a soul set free?
- Christina Rossetti

I hope you find peace. Farewell.

 

[JigsawFeelin]

take care, lovely xx

 

[wielkiwrobel]

Good luck bro, charcoal is best method

 

[wielkiwrobel]

Are you still with us?

 

[fox_wannabe]

I wish you peaceful exit.

 

[Smily]

I hope you get what you desire, peace!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

If you went through with your plans, I hope you found peace.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I hope you find the peace you desire fly high

 

[Bullit]

Good luck!

 

[knion]

Hello. Thank you so much for all of your kind messages. I just wanted to keep everyone updated.

obviously, as you are reading this it's probably evident that I failed my attempt. Drastically.

I think it's worth saying that I massively underestimated the flight I'd feel when attempting.

I threw up and hyperventilated/ panicked after about an hour in my car and ended up asking for help in my completely dazed state.

I ended up in hospital on oxygen. I have no adverse effects to show for my attempt either (other than some bruises from injection sites for blood tests) which I am thankful for.

Other than that I am just dealing with the fallout of a failed attempt which isn't great and to be honest I hope I can try again some day. But as of right now life is still pretty damn awful and I've got a lot of eyes on me (outside of the privacy I get online).

yet again, I want to thank everyone for their well wishes and I hope I can be a bit more involved on this site whilst I have to remain around.

 

[Auto Immunity After]

Hello. Thank you so much for all of your kind messages. I just wanted to keep everyone updated.

obviously, as you are reading this it's probably evident that I failed my attempt. Drastically.

I think it's worth saying that I massively underestimated the flight I'd feel when attempting.

I threw up and hyperventilated/ panicked after about an hour in my car and ended up asking for help in my completely dazed state.

I ended up in hospital on oxygen. I have no adverse effects to show for my attempt either (other than some bruises from injection sites for blood tests) which I am thankful for.

Other than that I am just dealing with the fallout of a failed attempt which isn't great and to be honest I hope I can try again some day. But as of right now life is still pretty damn awful and I've got a lot of eyes on me (outside of the privacy I get online).

yet again, I want to thank everyone for their well wishes and I hope I can be a bit more involved on this site whilst I have to remain around.

I think your body was telling you its not ready to move on yet. I am glad you had no adverse effects and got medical attention. Maybe your family will get more involved in your life and help you sort out all your feelings.

 

[Makko]

Well, if you got stuck in existence you might as well check out the comfy thread. A most worthy abuse of our mortal time:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/comfy-thread.61453/