The CTB Chart

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

This is how I see it and this was drawn by a therapist I went to see some months ago. He said people see is better to cut it (where it's the CTB mark). I see it this way too. I want to stop my life.
I can't take it anymore. Every second is an agony. Music helps though. But I can't play music like before all this shit. Thanks for reading. I love all members of this community. I want to make that CTB cross on that line. Sorry for my 3 year-old kid drawing. I suck on Paint. I don't know what to do anymore. Every second I think in taking my own life.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Cover the path in big spikes and lava to better represent how difficult it is tbh

 

[Brick In The Wall]

It reminds me of a chart I saw that showed how much of your life is spent working and going to school. An how much of it was spent in retirement or whatever.

Many people in our generation will never retire, myself included. I feel like there's a strong correlation to that and your suffering chart.

 

[SpottedPanda]

There is some comfort in knowing, CTB aside, that we're only here for max 100 years. I feel like even though that chart shows more suffering, there's still an end in sight. Contrary to my idle minded daydreams, I can't fathom what ordeal would be in store if we lived beyond that.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

For me, if I live my life without dreams or goals, only desiring to be dead it's not worth living and I prefer killing myself instead of wasting time doing things to distract myself from taking my own life. It's stupid (sorry, don't mean to offend)

 

[Brick In The Wall]

For me, if I live my life without dreams or goals, only desiring to be dead it's not worth living and I prefer killing myself instead of wasting time doing things to distract myself for taking my own life. It's stupid.

Hey man, that boulder isn't gona push itself to the top! I definitely hear you though. Most people just merely exist, and scrape by.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Hey man, that boulder isn't gona push itself to the top! I definitely hear you though. Most people just merely exist, and scrape by.

That's the Sisyphus' myth. Read about it and you'll know the meaningless of life. All we do points to nothing.
Just a comment for fun: recently open YouTube to put some music and recommended videos there was one about Longevity and how to live longer.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

That's the Sisyphus' myth. Read about it and you'll know the meaningless of life. All we do points to nothing.

I'll definitely check it out. I love reading about philosophical ideologies even if I don't always agree with them.

I believe, that we don't know shit about shit. None of us do, even though we like to think we do.

Doesn't mean we can't try to grasp at a better understanding. Even if it is all ultimately meaningless in the end.

 

[TheRaul95]

Sometimes feels like perfect time for CTB, then for some reason waiting for positive miracle and boom. Cycle repeats...

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

A humane and reasonable therapist, who knew?

 

[Mm80]

This is how I see it and this was drawn by a therapist I went to see some months ago. He said sometimes is better to cut it (where it's the CTB mark). I see it this way. I want to stop my life.
I can't take it anymore. Every second is an agony. Music helps though. But I can't play music like before all this shit. Thanks for reading. I love all members of this community. I want to make that CTB cross on that line. Sorry for my 3 year-old kid drawing. I suck on Paint. I don't know what to do anymore. Every second I think in taking my own life.

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Your therapist said sometimes its better to ctb?

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Your therapist said sometimes its better to ctb?

Sorry, he said some people see ctb that way. Better die than keep on suffering.

Your therapist said sometimes its better to ctb?

No, sorry. I corrected that part. He wouldn't earn more money if he had said that.

 

[rhiino]

Sorry, he said some people see ctb that way. Better die than keep on suffering.

Well, that is the essence of suicide, isn't it?