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TheVanishingPoint

TheVanishingPoint

Experienced
May 20, 2025
234
I live this imposed act they call life
Every day I drag myself out of one nightmare only to enter another just quieter more orderly more insidious
I don't wake by choice but because the biological clock spits me out of sleep like a rejection
And I go back to wearing this body that weighs on me that irritates me that can hurt me in a thousand ways even just by standing still
A body that ages that decays that gets sick and every day reminds me that I am nothing but borrowed flesh

The people around me are ghosts that make noise
I didn't choose them I endure them
Yet I have to meet them listen to them tolerate them because that's how it works they say
Society coexistence relationships empty words
I find nothing in them but constant discomfort a forced march
Everyone pretends I don't want to pretend anymore

Every day is a broken mechanism I keep spinning
Trapped in this routine that pretends to be meaning
I fill the hours with useless actions just to avoid going completely insane
But I don't want distractions
I don't want hobbies pottery classes meditation painting mindful cooking
I just want to say that this existence disgusts me

I'm not looking for comfort
I'm not looking for salvation
I see and that's it
I see the brutality of existence the farce of hope the lie of those who say it will get better
Every day is one more scratch one less chance one step closer to nothing
And that nothing yes I long for it

I'm still here but not by choice
I'm here because my biological cage doesn't open easily
Because the exit is painful brutal final
And yet I look at it every day I contemplate it I respect it
Because it's the only truth that doesn't lie

This is me
No poetry no beauty no consolation
Only the truth naked cold nauseating
And if someone manages to read to the end without turning away
then maybe I'm not alone

Hello everyone
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,471
Hello friend. I made it to the end :) I like the poem.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
Very well said! Every word speaks to me.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,268
Welcome to the forum. I love the way you write.
 
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TheVanishingPoint

TheVanishingPoint

Experienced
May 20, 2025
234
Thank you all.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,332
i agree.
 
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Michelstaedter

Michelstaedter

Specialist
Feb 25, 2025
320
Beautiful!!! Those words touch my heart, and yes, I am a prisoner of this life that has been imposed on me, from which I want to be free: how to live, but more importantly, how to die. Hypocritical and banal society, I want to escape from you and be happy forever in death.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
919
Brilliantly written. I resonate with all you said.
 
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J&L383

Enlightened
Jul 18, 2023
1,204
I live this imposed act they call life
Every day I drag myself out of one nightmare only to enter another just quieter more orderly more insidious
I don't wake by choice but because the biological clock spits me out of sleep like a rejection
And I go back to wearing this body that weighs on me that irritates me that can hurt me in a thousand ways even just by standing still
A body that ages that decays that gets sick and every day reminds me that I am nothing but borrowed flesh

The people around me are ghosts that make noise
I didn't choose them I endure them
Yet I have to meet them listen to them tolerate them because that's how it works they say
Society coexistence relationships empty words
I find nothing in them but constant discomfort a forced march
Everyone pretends I don't want to pretend anymore

Every day is a broken mechanism I keep spinning
Trapped in this routine that pretends to be meaning
I fill the hours with useless actions just to avoid going completely insane
But I don't want distractions
I don't want hobbies pottery classes meditation painting mindful cooking
I just want to say that this existence disgusts me

I'm not looking for comfort
I'm not looking for salvation
I see and that's it
I see the brutality of existence the farce of hope the lie of those who say it will get better
Every day is one more scratch one less chance one step closer to nothing
And that nothing yes I long for it

I'm still here but not by choice
I'm here because my biological cage doesn't open easily
Because the exit is painful brutal final
And yet I look at it every day I contemplate it I respect it
Because it's the only truth that doesn't lie

This is me
No poetry no beauty no consolation
Only the truth naked cold nauseating
And if someone manages to read to the end without turning away
then maybe I'm not alone

Hello everyone
Hi. 🤗
 
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polm

If I was your pet you’d take me to the vet
May 3, 2025
129
This. I relate.
 

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