Talking to friends

[PeacefulTonic]

Is there a point?
It seems that they always say similar things, that "life will get better", "don't kill yourself, what about your loved ones?", so on and so forth. I feel that, unless they've been depressed to the point of suicidal ideation, they will just say many cookie cutter things that other pro life people say.
I have anxiety to the point where I don't even want to go outside my door to grab food delivery. I don't care about anything anymore. I fucked up my life to the point where everything is unfixable and death is the only option. But they tell me, what if things get better? Nothing will, I don't want to waste my time anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not see a point in talking to people. In no way would they understand. I feel like if I told others, they would get in the way of my ctb plans as they would want me to stay alive for selfish reasons. There is nothing they could do to help anyway. I think many non suicidal people live in denial of the fact that things could get that hopeless that one would consider ctb, so they just say platitudes rather than accept there is nothing that can be done.
I can relate to how you feel, death is the only option for me. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Hopefully I can find that peace soon… I can't live like this everyday, it's impossible. I just have to get things in order before I decide to go

 

[Sakura94]

I guess a good reason is by talking about it you can prepare them for what is coming. That way it isn't a huge shock when it does. And there is always the small chance one of them can help, like become an extremely close friend and assist you in some way you didn't think possible because you've unlocked something in their brain. Idk, I'm rambling a bit

 

[PeacefulTonic]

That makes sense. They are aware that I have suicidal thoughts everyday. There are a few that I've told that I'm most likely ending things soon. They won't be surprised

 

[brutalus]

i barely ever tell my friends. it feels like a call for help, and i dont want that

 

[PeacefulTonic]

i barely ever tell my friends. it feels like a call for help, and i dont want that

I don't want it either, but there are only a select few that I can vent to about my suicidal thoughts and ideations, who wouldn't tell others. It's hard to bottle things up and keep it to yourself. Sigh, I hate myself and my life