Help Suicide note and attempt?

[Deer_Dairy]

Hello,

I want to get everything ready before attempt. Money, contacts for providers of services like electricity, gas, insurance etc.
That is quite easy.

But I want to leave three SNs for my loved ones. And I am not sure how to do it, because what if I won't find enough courage to pull the trigger?
I don't want them to know if I fail. Any tips?

Other thing - I am not sure what I want to tell them. That I loved them and it is not their fault, sure. But it feels like cliche for me and somehow incomplete...

 

[a-lien]

is it an option you leave a note in the pocket of your trousers or put it near you, with clues where to find the letters (and hide the letter somewhere, maybe in a book or something like that, maybe something only them understand..."you will find it in the book I like the most when I was a kid" for example..
only an idea...

I'm not a pro with delayed mails /messages... but there are options too, maybe someone knows more about that.

 

[walliwalli]

placing it near you or in clothes on your person would be easiest. is the concern that you might non-fatally injure yourself during the attempt and they'll find the notes? maybe you could also place it somewhere among your belongings (like your bedroom), so it's not immediately found, but loved ones will likely find it when going through your things.

delayed emails are another way, yeah. you could schedule them to be a day or two after your attempt, or even further out if you're worried about failing and becoming hospitalized. the schedule send can always be cancelled.