Suicide letter

[224]

Does anyone else have their suicide letter written in their phone like in the notes app and always edits it or is that just me? Like editing it brings me so much comfort because its like one step closer to peace.
(I really hope someone responds to this or that would just be awkward)

 

[SadGuyWannaDie]

Yes, I've had active drafts going for two months. Sometimes I'm so distraught over them I have to delete them and start from scratch. When I planned/tried to ctb last time I had taken the time to hand write letters in sealed envelopes but I could never find the right words and when I left for the hotel I ripped them up and threw them away. I gave up leaving anything behind then but now I've started new drafts that I edit all of the time and cannot stop it's obsessive.

 

[WornOutLife]

Not in my phone but I do in my PC.
I have some letters for different people in .doc files in some kinda hidden folders. (some of them were already seen when I failed to CTB because I had printed them but it doesn't matter.)
I agree with you, writing those letters relaxes you because in the end, you know you're closer to peace.

 

[Yulieth Manjarrez]

De hecho apenas estoy pensando en hacerla, la tengo en mi cabeza y siempre la modificó por q apenas es q tengo esos pensamientos y dejaria una niña de 4 años

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I think I used to have a google doc but it would have been for a different time over 6 years ago. I guess Google docs aren't the best place to keep them anyway because it would be absurdly easy to find them in that case.

 

[Yulieth Manjarrez]

Es cierto aveces quiero escribir palabras amables pero aveces quiero decirle a ka gente lo q se merece escuchar

 

[BPD Barbie]

I used to have that but recently transfered it to paper and put it with the rest of my ctb kit. I do have a drafted gooybye post for this site and my plan on my phone notes though.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I have a notebook. It starts off with a letter and then it's just random thoughts and song lyrics. Kinda like a suicide diary.

 

[Xander_McG]

Yeah Ive had all mines written for about 3 weeks now on my PC. Every day I go in and bits and pieces, saying how im feeling on that day, the stuff i'll miss etc. Just kind of using it as sort of a diary now, just so everyone who I care about knows everything that I'm going through and understands why I need to do what I am

 

[TheYounger]

Not really. Probably won't leave a suicide note on the actual day. Not really much to say.

 

[224]

De hecho apenas estoy pensando en hacerla, la tengo en mi cabeza y siempre la modificó por q apenas es q tengo esos pensamientos y dejaria una niña de 4 años

Please Please keep fighting for that 4 year old girl. Do not let her see the cruelness of the world so early. Fight for her to keep her innocence for a little longer, please. I know u r hurting and ik that it is selfish of me to ask u to stay, but if u ever feel like leaving this world, take the 4 year old girl and who ever else u love and flee ur country. Go to a gorgeous island or mountain (whichever u like) and start a new life and see how that works.Much love x

Yeah Ive had all mines written for about 3 weeks now on my PC. Every day I go in and bits and pieces, saying how im feeling on that day, the stuff i'll miss etc. Just kind of using it as sort of a diary now, just so everyone who I care about knows everything that I'm going through and understands why I need to do what I am

As much as it kills me knowing u do that, I can respect it. That would help others cope.

Es cierto aveces quiero escribir palabras amables pero aveces quiero decirle a ka gente lo q se merece escuchar

Agreed. I have like 2 notes, one for show that I would actually leave with "kind words" and bs about how its no ones fault, but then i have another one that explains everything. I just would feel so guilty actually telling the ppl who made me do it that they r the reasons and ruin their lives, though they deserve it.

Yes, I've had active drafts going for two months. Sometimes I'm so distraught over them I have to delete them and start from scratch. When I planned/tried to ctb last time I had taken the time to hand write letters in sealed envelopes but I could never find the right words and when I left for the hotel I ripped them up and threw them away. I gave up leaving anything behind then but now I've started new drafts that I edit all of the time and cannot stop it's obsessive.

I am so glad u stayed:) If u ever try again, leave the country and start a new life first. Idc where u go or how u go, just buy a one way ticket and get a bartending job at some restaraunt and live a simple life with no real obligations. Much love x

 

[Rn110bg101]

I have a draft of an email on Gmail for my ex-friend, planning to schedule it to the day after I CTB. I might leave something for my mom as well but I have no idea what to say so that's unwritten for now.

Otherwise I'll just make a post on Reddit and Instagram and leave it at that. I'm too tired to write something to each individual I knew.

 

[TripleA]

Nope

 

[Lordsudbury]

Mines a giant book

 

[Yulieth Manjarrez]

no creo que sea necesario escribir a cada persona que conocez... Solo a quien necesite realmente una explicación
no creo que sea necesario escribir a cada persona que conocez... Solo a quien necesite realmente una explicación

 

[RedFoxSwims]

I'm not writing a suicide note since I'm making it look like an accident.

 

[NoIdeaAtAll]

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Does anyone else have their suicide letter written in their phone like in the notes app and always edits it or is that just me? Like editing it brings me so much comfort because its like one step closer to peace.
(I really hope someone responds to this or that would just be awkward)

I personally think it's better to write it down in paper. I've written down a few letter, couldn't find the right words, in the end I decide to write as little as possible, mainly to say "good bye and thank you", I feel like the more I write, the more negativity from me coming out makes it look like I am blaming my death on others

 

[ocd is bad]

Mines a giant book

The A+ next to "grade" made me chuckle a bit lol