Would anyone be willing to give me feedback on my suicide letter?

[nights5467]

I wrote a letter for my Mom to attempt to explain why I caught the bus once I catch it. I want to explain my decision fully, eliminate as many questions as possible and help support her during the grieving process. I need someone to read over it and tell me any and all questions they have after reading it so that I can add answers to the letter. I do not want her to have any nagging questions that prevent her from gaining closure.

note: there is political opinion in my letter, but i do not wish for this thread to turn into a political debate. please refrain from commenting on the politics mentioned in the letter unless your comment can be used to help me clarify the language in my letter. i am only seeking a second pair of eyes so that i can answer the questions about my suicide that i missed and remove ambiguity from my message

Here's the link. You can reply in the thread below or you can comment directly on the document itself. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1pNnglxKkL_rMY2n2m_2F2mraJb80VKXX43X-h-IJe1A/edit?usp=drivesdk

 

[Atonal]

I wrote a letter for my Mom to attempt to explain why I caught the bus once I catch it. I want to explain my decision fully, eliminate as many questions as possible and help support her during the grieving process.

I've read the whole letter. I tried to put myself in the shoes of… well, actually in my own shoes, reading a letter from someone close to me. And to be honest, I'm not sure if any letter could ever fully address all the questions and doubts that might arise. Even the most detailed explanation of the reasons may be met with resistance and rejection. Especially if it is from a loving and deeply caring person.
But your letter is actually very detailed and I really don't know if it could be improved upon.
It touches on both external and internal causes, anticipates questions that might arise as the letter is read and addresses personal relationships...
Although it was emotionally difficult to read whilst fully immersing myself in the role of another person. But that's the nature of such letters, I guess.
I have nothing to compare it to really, but it seems comprehensive.

 

[voc_89]

I hope you are able to read this. Wow. I read it all and like i am speechless. First off thank you for trusting us to this level. This is a perfect..... PERFECT suicide letter. It oozes with compassion, understanding, reasoning... like I totally feel your pain. Again thank you for trusting us to this level to share. U metioned well improvements. This was what i observed from my read. "Nowl" 5 paragraph 5 sentence. Paragraph 6 you have double space sentence 9. I could have missed more. But I would keep them though. It adds to you being genuine. Your health situation. I had an ex who thought she was exposed due to her sibling having it. I still loved her (she was playing me.... using me to make who she really wanted jealous... then she realised how much i cared for her and was building a life for her (i now earn 5 times my countries average salary)... pivoted.... but by then i checked out.... 3 times i told her.... pick.... i will not be second choice.... pick.... else i am gone.... she wasn't clear soi left her). Just putting some sprinkle of hope in your situation. But i get where u are coming from. The working wold is shit. I got extremely lucky. So i will not fault anyone for having the belief its f'd cause it is.... Idk what you will do. How it goes. But i get why you want to CTB (your words resonated DEEPLY with me). And i hope no matter what that u find peace. That said, this was a perfect letter. I may steal parts of it lol