Discussion Suicide as a way of revenge

[Kirkinator]

Anyone else also wants to die to get back at someone who wronged them?

I know this is extremely selfish and also one of the reasons people don't view suicidal people favourably, but I can't help but desperately wish to die to make my father suffer. He's been and is a terrible father to this day. I've never met a man more hypocritical such as him. He completely destroyed my self-esteem and sense of worth, he has no empathy, everything is my fault and he gets mad whenever I bring up his hypocrisy or the fallacies in his arguments. He has the gall to make it seem like I have all the problems in the world while he has none.

One part of me wants to succeed in life and move far, far away and never speak to him again. But inevitably as the days go by I end up forgiving him and failing on my promise to always remember what he did to me and never forgive. I don't want to forgive. I want him to die without his child by his side, I want him to spend the last moments of his life completely alone. But I just keep failing on this promise, thus why I want to kill myself. It's definitive.

If I can't move out in about 2 years I'll kill myself. I can't take this demon anymore.

Or if anyone has any tips on how to never forgive someone I'd greatly appreciate it. I don't want to forgive someone who had the courage to be this cruel to their own child.

 

[webb&flow]

The greatest revenge is living and rubbing it in their face by living a good life while they are still hatin'

this will take time, and be a journey; but in the end it leads with you better and separated from your oppressor; leaving them to seethe, leaving you to soothe

 

[fadedghost]

Anyone else also wants to die to get back at someone who wronged them?

I know this is extremely selfish and also one of the reasons people don't view suicidal people favourably, but I can't help but desperately wish to die to make my father suffer. He's been and is a terrible father to this day. I've never met a man more hypocritical such as him. He completely destroyed my self-esteem and sense of worth, he has no empathy, everything is my fault and he gets mad whenever I bring up his hypocrisy or the fallacies in his arguments. He has the gall to make it seem like I have all the problems in the world while he has none.

One part of me wants to succeed in life and move far, far away and never speak to him again. But inevitably as the days go by I end up forgiving him and failing on my promise to always remember what he did to me and never forgive. I don't want to forgive. I want him to die without his child by his side, I want him to spend the last moments of his life completely alone. But I just keep failing on this promise, thus why I want to kill myself. It's definitive.

If I can't move out in about 2 years I'll kill myself. I can't take this demon anymore.

Or if anyone has any tips on how to never forgive someone I'd greatly appreciate it. I don't want to forgive someone who had the courage to be this cruel to their own child.

if he's that selfish and horrible, he probably won't care that much if you commit suicide

this is what you do:

1) get job

2) save up

3) search for remote job while doing first job

4) take remote job in current location

5) ask remote job if you can move to X state

6) job says yes then go to 7 if no go back to 5

7) go to new state,find new place

8) send message you are going no-contract because of past abuse on old number. take sim chip, cut up and throw out

9) get new number, only tell work of new number, find people to chill with

 

[Rihan]

I feel you. I have some thoughts like that sometimes too.
Consider your motivations for wanting to commit suicide. Is revenge or this person your main reason? Do you think that having him feel pain is worth your life?