Sometimes I feel like starting over in suicide

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

This life of mine is a cursed one. ever since I was a kid I had to endure shit and face abuse from everyone with no one giving a shit. Wishing I died at 13, my life is a wreck. I dont want to change or work or recovery or any of that shit. I just wanna be dead at peace forever and ever and maybe be blessed with a better life than this one

I also had a blow out with my therapist. I am done with recovery

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry that your recovery didn't work out for you. What happened with your therapist that caused everything to fall apart? You don't have to answer if you don't want to, but I'm curious about it if you do.

I also sometimes wish I would have died years ago, but unfortunately here I am. Hugs to you.

 

[WornOutLife]

When you said you thought about CTB when you were 13 it reminded me of myself.
I used to feel better with recovery these last weeks but now I wanna CTB asap! It seems to be unavoidable because life is just too much for us

 

[Secrets1]

It's a fuckin vomit coaster with strong seat belts. Always wondered why the thoughts started so young and naturally gravitated to suicide.

 

[LittleJem]

I wish I'd died 20 years ago. then my ex and my boyfriend would never have met me and no-one would need to be upset.

I just want to be dead as soon as possible .

 

[Superdeterminist]

Some people don't realise that some damage is irreparable. People shouldn't be made to endure permanent damages.

 

[FuneralCry]

life is painful I agree, hopefully we can all find peace through death.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Some people don't realise that some damage is irreparable. People shouldn't be made to endure permanent damages.

Irreparable trauma is real

 

[MrBlue]

Irreparable trauma is real

I'm really sorry you've had to go through hell. I think when people say that suicide is a "permanent solution to a temporary problem" they completely forget that there are permanent problems that people have to live with like trauma, mental illness and chronic isolation.

I've also recently given up on recovery, it felt like bashing my head against a wall, I've achieved nothing since I started.