Handsup051
New Member
- Jul 2, 2026
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Most of this post is context, actual question at the end.
I'll start by saying I don't necessarily want to die, but I've essentially lost the will to keep going. These past few years have been me trying several ways to get on my feet, but mental and physical disabilities kept getting in the way, combined with an increasingly dim worldview where I just don't see the point. I just turned 30 and I'm living with my parents, they want me to move, and I just can't see that as possible. I figure the only thing left I can do for them is get myself out of the way as to not strain their resources.
I was previously on SSI and lived in a treatment apartment for some time based on a (false, outdated) Schizophrenia diagnosis, but stupidly moved back out to my parents' place on the assumption that I became well enough to work for a living, only to once again fall apart over the past few years. With the faulty diagnosis removed, Social Security no longer recognizes me as disabled, (my physical disability, EDS, is barely recognized by any health service but prevents me from doing any physical labor) and I am in the middle of a months-long appeal process with no resolution in sight.
Right now I'm at a crossroads. I have the beginnings of several exit plans lined up, but the actual desire to leave is not there (and according to my therapist, probably never will be.) I would rather live as I am as a worthless slab of meat, but my deadline is around December. If I don't have SSI by then, I'll have no other choice.
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I've been to a couple outpatient programs and the psych ED as a teenager, but never as an adult. My question is, does anyone here have any insight on how being committed could affect my Disability progress? I have no illusions of it actually helping my mental state, but I'd be willing to go if it got me a ticket to life. If it can't, I'd rather save the trouble and cut to the end.
I'll start by saying I don't necessarily want to die, but I've essentially lost the will to keep going. These past few years have been me trying several ways to get on my feet, but mental and physical disabilities kept getting in the way, combined with an increasingly dim worldview where I just don't see the point. I just turned 30 and I'm living with my parents, they want me to move, and I just can't see that as possible. I figure the only thing left I can do for them is get myself out of the way as to not strain their resources.
I was previously on SSI and lived in a treatment apartment for some time based on a (false, outdated) Schizophrenia diagnosis, but stupidly moved back out to my parents' place on the assumption that I became well enough to work for a living, only to once again fall apart over the past few years. With the faulty diagnosis removed, Social Security no longer recognizes me as disabled, (my physical disability, EDS, is barely recognized by any health service but prevents me from doing any physical labor) and I am in the middle of a months-long appeal process with no resolution in sight.
Right now I'm at a crossroads. I have the beginnings of several exit plans lined up, but the actual desire to leave is not there (and according to my therapist, probably never will be.) I would rather live as I am as a worthless slab of meat, but my deadline is around December. If I don't have SSI by then, I'll have no other choice.
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I've been to a couple outpatient programs and the psych ED as a teenager, but never as an adult. My question is, does anyone here have any insight on how being committed could affect my Disability progress? I have no illusions of it actually helping my mental state, but I'd be willing to go if it got me a ticket to life. If it can't, I'd rather save the trouble and cut to the end.
