So I am a moderate but daily smoker of weed and lately cope with valium and booze as well. The thing is.. I got my plan all set up and determined to end it, but wanna make it as pleasant as possible. So in my mind taking a lot of valium.booze and weed before I end it will.make things easier, but I'm afraid it could actually stop me from commiting suicide as well cause obviously I would feel good on these drugs. So what do you guys think? Are people more likely to take their lives under the influence or when sober and during withdrawal? In my fantasies I do it high as a kite and not give a fck anymore. Mixing booze and valium already got me in a state of total apathy before, but didnt have the tools at the time and I am not sure I will ever reach that mindstate again. So what is more likely to happen and what are the statistics on this if anybody knows and how do YOU plan to do it? High as a kite or actually during withdrawal when anxiety peaks? I think the second one is probably more likely and might be needed to take such a big leap, but I secretely hope I will do it in a state of apathy on drugs but afraid the drugs will make me feel "happy" enough to not do it which obviously wouldnt make my situation any better at all. I know it sounds like I haven't made up my mind, but I actually have I just need to find the best way to surpress my survival instincts and make it as "pleasant" as possible.
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