Venting So tired.

[disappearingquietly]

I'm so fucking tired. I barely have any energy. I could go on and on about why, but I can't be bothered to. I'm so tempted to grab a scarf, tie it to the door knob, and try to just fucking die. I know that's a highly risky method, but at this point, I don't really care anymore. The only fate I'm scared of is becoming a vegetable. That's a fate worse than death, in my honest opinion.

 

[fade to black]

My dad always said we'd mess up CTB and be a vegetable when we'd discuss why we wanted to do it. Two years ago, almost to the day, he was found unresponsive at home by his business partner. They ruled it undiagnosed lung failure. Except, his will was neatly placed on his bedside table and the only thing in his pockets was an empty bottle of F based prescription meds. He CTB and fooled everyone that didn't know what his state of mind had been for years.

 

[CantDoIt]

I'm so fucking tired. I barely have any energy. I could go on and on about why, but I can't be bothered to. I'm so tempted to grab a scarf, tie it to the door knob, and try to just fucking die. I know that's a highly risky method, but at this point, I don't really care anymore. The only fate I'm scared of is becoming a vegetable. That's a fate worse than death, in my honest opinion.

Gosh I get this. Every day I struggle to exist through the day. Becoming a vegetable is only a risk with certain methods so just be careful about what you choose, how you do it, and make sure you aren't discovered.

 

[Imcantbreathe]

I'm so fucking tired. I barely have any energy. I could go on and on about why, but I can't be bothered to. I'm so tempted to grab a scarf, tie it to the door knob, and try to just fucking die. I know that's a highly risky method, but at this point, I don't really care anymore. The only fate I'm scared of is becoming a vegetable. That's a fate worse than death, in my honest opinion.

You are not alone.. Everyday I wake up thinking today is the day, last night I was so sad I ended up taking all my anti-depressants which I just ended up with a humongous migraine instead of my deleting myself. I thought about jumping but that takes driving and I don't even want to leave my bed. So conflicting

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I personally just wish for the option to painlessly die like never waking again, I'd also fear trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse suffering, it's horrific to me how such could happen and I find it so cruel how people even have to fear that in the first place. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[Oyasumidanny]

I completely understand you, there are moments when I also think about committing ctb with anything I have at hand, but i personally would not like my family to see me in that position