So sad, can't cry

[depressionkills]

Hi,

Long story short: I tried CTB by last fall by partial hanging but failed (branch broke).

Anyway, I got a new date March 21st and made sure nothing will fail this time.

The last 3 monfhs has been hell. I am so incredibly sad, but I can't cry at all.

I don't think I have genuinely been happy since 3 years.

I never smile.

When I hear about people having fun and enjoying their lives, I become even sadder, thinking that could have been me.

At this point I am walking zombie, just waiting to end the agony.

Anyway anybody else here have that issue?

Extremely sad, but can't cry?

 

[booray]

Yes, I've reached the same point. So depressed and anxious that I can no longer even cry about it. Can't even crack a smile anymore because nothing brings me joy or pleasure. I'm sticking around only because I have things to do before I ctb. But I want to leave this world ASAP.

 

[Lost10]

Yes, I think it would have been easier when my wounds were fresher and I was crying. I think it gives you a release. I can't cry anymore so it's just pain and waiting.

 

[sorella santini]

I have days like that, where I don't see the point anymore of tears. Or I'm just numb and can't cry. But then I'll have days where if I think about my situation I just burst into tears.

 

[baum]

I have the same issue.

 

[FuneralCry]

I used to cry a lot, but now I cannot. I do feel emotionless a lot and its like I have died inside. I still feel sad sometimes though but its an empty kind of sadness.