So low I fantasize about putting myself in dangerous and confrontational situations in the hope of being killed

[Time to fly]

Lockdown has ruined my plans...life is just a drag...I want to ctb my way but find myself fantasizing about putting my life in danger hoping someone will kill me...God I hate my head...

 

[LostSoul101]

Hey! I think forcing someone to be a murderer isn't the nicest thing to do, I'm afraid. I think forests / wooded areas might be open to wonder around in, perhaps stay overnight. Did you see that episode of Russian Doll on Netflix where she slept outside and died of the cold? I love that series! The main characters keeps accidentally dying in almost every episode..... wierdly entertaining when you're having suicidal ideation!

 

[Time to fly]

I will ctb my way (jumping) just find my head is so screwed if I go out I want to get in a confrontational situation in the hope of being killed...I know it's not right, which is why I stay in as much as possible but if I do go out I fantasize about someone killing me...

 

[Chewie50]

Lockdown has ruined my plans...life is just a drag...I want to ctb my way but find myself putting my life in danger hoping someone will kill me...God I hate my head...

 

[LostSoul101]

You're forcing someone else to be a murderer. And they have to live with that. I know it's hard to think clearly right now, but avoid dragging others into you CTB.

 

[Chewie50]

I understand. I am thinking of driving to where any of the riots are and hope somebody takes me out. It seems stupid, but feasible.

 

[Yuki Tenuki]

Stop that, please. What do you do if you end up in a wheelchair?

 

[Time to fly]

You're forcing someone else to be a murderer. And they have to live with that. I know it's hard to think clearly right now, but avoid dragging others into you CTB.

I'm not forcing anyone, I said I fantasize about it...have serious mental health issues and social issues that is why I stay inside...if lockdown wasn't here I could get to my location and jump...

 

[LostSoul101]

Does no one get the hint I've dropped?!
There is a Netflix series where the character keeps accidentally killing herself in every epsidoe.....

 

[Time to fly]

Does no one get the hint I've dropped?!
There is a Netflix series where the character keeps accidentally killing herself in every epsidoe.....

Sorry don't get the hint between made up TV series and real life

 

[LostSoul101]

Lol yeah never mind, don't watch that show where someone kills themself every episode. It's all made up.

 

[Time to fly]

Lol yeah never mind, don't watch that show where someone kills themself every episode. It's all made up.

So you are saying a TV show is real life...

 

[LostSoul101]

Never mind. Don't watch how people can die in tv shows. It's made up. The methods don't work in real life.

 

[Time to fly]

Never mind. Don't watch how people can die in tv shows. It's made up. The methods don't work in real life.

Thanks for the wonderful insight to TV programs

 

[LostSoul101]

Sure! Good luck with your original plan!

 

[Time to fly]

Sure! Good luck with your original plan!

If you read the post it says fantasize.. but thanks for all you insight to the world of TV programs...

 

[LostSoul101]

And I said: never mind and good luck!

 

[Time to fly]

Good luck with the TV programs

 

[LittleJem]

I fantasise about just curling up on the street and dying. It doesn't work like that unfortunately!!
OP it's unlikely you'll be killed in a dangerous situation- you might be mugged or beaten up, but I think to be killed you'd need to be in a gang or something. Maybe it depends on the country though. There's nowhere I could go to get killed in the UK. I wish.
I went to bed reading about self-strangulation and woke up feeling similar. I hate my head too.
I also used to fantasise that someone would shoot me through the window. But that is definitely not gonna happen