Venting So I won with pain but my mom thinks i'm junkie now

[Hans Voralberg]

I literally create a cure for sex addiction because I was so desperate not to gain AIDS and my body was literally forcing my to go to an escort. I used CBD which is natural cannabidiol which is contained in Cannabis Sativa L to sedate my body and stop feel tense which was very painful feeling and nearly drive me to CTB. Now after 1,5 month of using CBD cooked as a milkshake i gained control over my mind and body. My personality is also stable now and my mood is not changing rapidly, but my mom found out yesterday that I was using cannabis and now she thinks that I will be junkie even that in my country CBD is completly legal and gaining dependence is nearly impossible less than 0.2 THC in staff that i used .In reality i fought with hypersexuality to not go to a hooker and destroy my psyche and body completly beyond a repair. There is no meds for my case. There is only chemical castration but it can do a major damage to the body so CBD was leser evil in comparsion to a hook up and being a part of someone trauma because of this. I repair my mind but completly destroy bond with my mother. It was the only way to recover and I did nothing wrong ( I had full knowleadge about the substance and side effects) but i feel horrible nontheless. Only good thing is I'm free of CTB thoughts and pain now.

 

[DPJ187]

Money doesn't make it better. It just makes your struggles different. Not knowing whomto trust, everyone seeing as a cash cow and getting angry when you dont spend money but being annoyed when you flash the cash, it meant I had nice things but I was empty inside, ive been that way the whole time. Something was wrong, not love or money but the voice in my mind, the one that says imposter, fraud and it meant I never relaxed, it meant my partner felt neglected and undervalued, so she left. Money is nice but a broken mind doesn't get fixed with money, it just gives you a reason to delay the inevitable. Freedom will win, freedom not slavery or servitude.

 

[Shu]

Complete junkie from using a medicinal herb that is completely harmful full of health benefits. Wow. Lmfao.