Venting So done with life, just can't bring myself to kill myself

[dxstressed]

So I was 1 year and 3 months clean of self-harm, until about 15 minutes ago.

It brought me such peace and tranquility after I'd cut myself, but now it just makes me think, if I can do this, why can't I bring myself to just end it all?

I am so fed up of living.

Dxstressed
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[summers]

Maybe the pain makes you feel alive, if you are numb to other stimuli? If you can't end it, then it's not the time time for you. That's not a bad thing - you will know when it's time.