So close to giving in

[lostinthebleak]

My mental strength is leaving me rapidly. Every time i get in my car I just want to push the pedal to the floor and drive head on into a tree just in hopes it'll end the pain. I know from my previous post/thread the risks of it possibly failing but its just in the back of my head. Hanging has also been an idea ive thought about as well as CO. I'm terrified that i could possibily loose my job that I have worked my entire life to reach to possibly be ruined due to a case of something I had no idea about but the circumstance has forced me to have to literally fight for my life/career. I don't know how things will play out but as much as I want to be hopeful I can't help but feel nothing but dread. I've lost so much in the last year of my life, losing my career would be the nail in the coffin.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel so much dread towards the future as well, it can be such a hopeless feeling. It is awful knowing that things could get worse, I'm sorry you are going through this. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[lostinthebleak]

I feel so much dread towards the future as well, it can be such a hopeless feeling. It is awful knowing that things could get worse, I'm sorry you are going through this. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

Thank you for the well wishes. I got accused of something at work and even though my record has been spotless I still have to go through so much government red tape just to prove im worthy of keeping my job. Hired a lawyer which wasnt cheap but theyve done a lot to help frame my argument to the best way they can. I refuse to go home a failure. I'd rather die than face the humiliation of explaining to people how i lost everything

 

[inanimate]

I lost my career a few months ago, I'm hoping that was the nail