Sn plan failed

[batbub56]

First time posting. kind of a longtime lurker and recently officially made an account. I had a recent failed ctb plan. So I discovered sn on this site a while ago and wasn't able to find a source. People I guess do not want to reveal their sn source. I understand, no one wants to feel responsible for someone elses death. So I thought I'd try making my own sn using sodium nitrate and sodium sulfite. I was on the last step. I'm not going to go into all the different steps but ended up with what i beleved to be a solution of sn and sodium sulfate. The sodium nitrate became sn and sodium sulfite became sodium sulfate. I just had to seperate the 2 but I was so pissed off that day I decided f*** it and just chugged the solution dissolved in water. I figured i already did the hard step to make sn. As long as sn is in there it should kill me so what if its mixed with sulfate. Well it tasted so nasty and salty I threw it all up. I am so pissed and humiliated with myself I went through buying all this shit and preparation and ruined it on an impulse. Going to try something else because going through all that chemistry was so tedious and annoying I just want a simple painless effortless way to cease existing.

 

[Jadeith]

I understand it might not mean much but - i'm genuinely proud of you. To go through all this effort, to gather knowledge necessary, get ingredients and actually complete the procedure? Bravo. Really, i mean it. I understand your disappointment after ruining it on the impulse but then again, you could ruin bough SN in the same way. Even with full SN routine, fasting, antiemetics and all, there's always possibility that your body will successfully repel the poison so don't beat yourself over it.

 

[batbub56]

I understand it might not mean much but - i'm genuinely proud of you. To go through all this effort, to gather knowledge necessary, get ingredients and actually complete the procedure? Bravo. Really, i mean it. I understand your disappointment after ruining it on the impulse but then again, you could ruin bough SN in the same way. Even with full SN routine, fasting, antiemetics and all, there's always possibility that your body will successfully repel the poison so don't beat yourself over it.

Thanks I was expecting for someone to just be like "omg how could you do that that's so impulsive just buy it". Like idk how to buy it and honestly that shit was so nasty drinking it I would not recommend i think even if it didn't have the sulfate in it, it would taste pretty similar I mean there both salts anyway. I have a different plan now I gotta do something soon I dont have a choice with shit happening in my life.

 

[volo]

Well, it's obtainable. You just have to search the site for a bit. People posted enough information in various threads.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

First time posting. kind of a longtime lurker and recently officially made an account. I had a recent failed ctb plan. So I discovered sn on this site a while ago and wasn't able to find a source. People I guess do not want to reveal their sn source. I understand, no one wants to feel responsible for someone elses death. So I thought I'd try making my own sn using sodium nitrate and sodium sulfite. I was on the last step. I'm not going to go into all the different steps but ended up with what i beleved to be a solution of sn and sodium sulfate. The sodium nitrate became sn and sodium sulfite became sodium sulfate. I just had to seperate the 2 but I was so pissed off that day I decided f*** it and just chugged the solution dissolved in water. I figured i already did the hard step to make sn. As long as sn is in there it should kill me so what if its mixed with sulfate. Well it tasted so nasty and salty I threw it all up. I am so pissed and humiliated with myself I went through buying all this shit and preparation and ruined it on an impulse. Going to try something else because going through all that chemistry was so tedious and annoying I just want a simple painless effortless way to cease existing.

Not sure you're aware but you want sodium nitrite.... Not nitrate.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I'm sorry to hear, but it could have ended far worse than that. At least you didn't have to go to the hospital or the psych ward.

 

[batbub56]

Not sure you're aware but you want sodium nitrite.... Not nitrate.

Yes sodium nitrate and sodium sulfite heated up to 300 degrees c turns the sodium nitrate to sodium nitrite. Sodium nitrate and sodium sulfite easily attainable.

I'm sorry to hear, but it could have ended far worse than that. At least you didn't have to go to the hospital or the psych ward.

Felt okay right after I threw up

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yes sodium nitrate and sodium sulfite heated up to 300 degrees c turns the sodium nitrate to sodium nitrite. Sodium nitrate and sodium sulfite easily attainable.

Felt okay right after I threw up

Very fortunate.

 

[unkown00]

Isn't it done with Calcium Sulfite?

 

[batbub56]

Isn't it done with Calcium Sulfite?

sodium sulfite works similar and calcium sulfite is harder to obtain

 

[jisatsu88]

You gotta put it in a pill capsule

 

[unkown00]

I guess it should work. The reducing power of the sulfite shouldn't matter whether its with calcium or sodium. Often the methods involve separating the water soluble sodium nitrite from the calcium sulfate. How did you plan to separate the sodium sulfate from the sodium nitrite? Was there a guide you would be comfortable sharing?

 

[batbub56]

I guess it should work. The reducing power of the sulfite shouldn't matter whether its with calcium or sodium. Often the methods involve separating the water soluble sodium nitrite from the calcium sulfate. How did you plan to separate the sodium sulfate from the sodium nitrite? Was there a guide you would be comfortable sharing?

Sulfate and nitrite dissolve in water. when the water solution is at freezing temperature the sulfite will settle at the bottom.

 

[amy joyce]

it could have ended far worse than that.

Yes he could have died. I get it but it seems after going through it all he didn't want to die at that time.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yes he could have died. I get it but it seems after going through it all he didn't want to die at that time.

The entire point was to die, so how would death be worse? I don't see anything in their post that suggests that wasn't what they wanted, they just seemed a bit confused on how to go about it.

 

[Gomomon]

Well, it's obtainable. You just have to search the site for a bit. People posted enough information in various threads.

I have access to the site, and I have ordered, but the shipment was returned, and I have heard no word from the DCL about getting it shipped again :(

 

[thekop85]

You gotta put it in a pill capsule

Does capsule works?
Interesting method
Anyway i respect you about all these chemical works and knowledges.
I just hate the govs do not let us be free from all the pains by own will...
Every moment i want to be free..