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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
The sn is getting delivered today. Now the planning really starts. I have to make this work. Trying to make it until after the holidays so I don't ruin my husband's Christmas but it's going to be hard. Ill have a beta blocker and antacid but I'm nervous that I won't have the anti-nausea medications.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,628
At least you will have a way to exit this life at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best and I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
At least you will have a way to exit this life at a time of your own choosing. I wish you the best and I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
Thank you. All of you on this forum have been great to talk to. I'll be around for another month or 2 since I need to make sure everything is in order for my family to move on after I'm gone and I won't a bother to them anymore
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
We've talked. Same boat. I had a good day yesterday and almost had hope. It's gone today.
I'm glad you have your SN. I'm working towards N, as I am a little scared of SN.

I wish there was an easier way.
I'm sorry to hear that but I can relate, you'll have a good day and then the next day turns to shit. I would love to use N but no access so I'm stuck with sn. Hopefully I'll pass out pretty quick after taking it. I'm happy at least I'll have the sn though so it's something. I'm holding out hope that it will work.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
It just got delivered. I still have to do a blood test but I'm confident it is good. To know I have the stuff to end my life now is almost a relief and strange enough has me excited but still nervous. This is my only solution to get rid of these thoughts and anxiety.
 
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devian

make no mistake i was born lavish
Oct 25, 2021
52
any reccomendation on a beta-blocker? i have antiacids and a shitty antiemetic (that doesnt even block dopamine) but if there's anything else easy to obtain I'd like to know.
im glad yours came! mine's arriving on the 26th. waiting for after christmas as well <3
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
any reccomendation on a beta-blocker? i have antiacids and a shitty antiemetic (that doesnt even block dopamine) but if there's anything else easy to obtain I'd like to know.
im glad yours came! mine's arriving on the 26th. waiting for after christmas as well <3
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any reccomendation on a beta-blocker? i have antiacids and a shitty antiemetic (that doesnt even block dopamine) but if there's anything else easy to obtain I'd like to know.
im glad yours came! mine's arriving on the 26th. waiting for after christmas as well <3
im getting propranolol. Hopefully that works. I just don't have any antiemetic
 
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kore_jdk

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Oct 19, 2021
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It just got delivered. I still have to do a blood test but I'm confident it is good. To know I have the stuff to end my life now is almost a relief and strange enough has me excited but still nervous. This is my only solution to get rid of these thoughts and anxiety.
Where did you order it from ? Thank you
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
647
I can't Put the source out in the open, against the rules but if you private message me I can tell you.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
169
If you need to declare sn, what to label its contents? C
 
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