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mango000

mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
59
this isnt a goodbye post, but i wanted to share that my sn is finally here! i feel so at peace knowing i can ctb whenever id like. id like to thank every kind person on this site for giving me courage to take control of my life. ive never felt so heard and understood before :heart:

1/07 - SN ordered from dmc
1/08 - SN paid for & shipped
1/24 - SN arrived (US)
 
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butimstillsoblue

butimstillsoblue

Warrior
Dec 27, 2024
85
this isnt a goodbye post, but i wanted to share that my sn is finally here! i feel so at peace knowing i can ctb whenever id like. id like to thank every kind person on this site for giving me courage to take control of my life. ive never felt so heard and understood before :heart:

1/07 - SN ordered from dmc
1/08 - SN paid for & shipped
1/24 - SN arrived (US)
I feel exactly the same.
 
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BlackDahlia62

New Member
Aug 5, 2024
4
What is dmc? Sorry just making sure
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
127
I remember feeling like that a few months ago. I now have full control over my life
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
649
Congratulations and hope you find your peace soon ((:
 
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cazza82

cazza82

Can’tsufferanymore
Nov 20, 2024
174
Mine has been shipped it definitely feels good knowing I have that guarantee whenever I need it
 
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ItsyBitsyWeetard

ItsyBitsyWeetard

Student
Jun 1, 2024
132
exactly how i feel much love to u man
this isnt a goodbye post, but i wanted to share that my sn is finally here! i feel so at peace knowing i can ctb whenever id like. id like to thank every kind person on this site for giving me courage to take control of my life. ive never felt so heard and understood before :heart:

1/07 - SN ordered from dmc
1/08 - SN paid for & shipped
1/24 - SN arrived (US)
 
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Tonic_Secrecy

Tonic_Secrecy

:<3
Jan 18, 2025
73
That's wonderful! I hope that whenever you decide to do it, it leads to you being at peace. But I have a question: does it arrive in a box, or does it arrive in a bag that straight up says SN?

I still live with my parents, and I don't want to risk them seeing it if I'm not there when it's delivered. They should respect my privacy if it's in a box, though. That's why I'm wondering.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,402
I understand why you'd feel relief, I wish you the best.
 
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APeacefulPlace

APeacefulPlace

Ape
Dec 2, 2024
297
That's wonderful! I hope that whenever you decide to do it, it leads to you being at peace. But I have a question: does it arrive in a box, or does it arrive in a bag that straight up says SN?
Recently ordered from DMC and package arrived on January 14th, the SN comes in a 8x7x2 inch black box ( approximately ) and wrapped with thin tape. The package label is checked off as commercial samples and item content descriptions says " anti-corrosion.concrete hardenin ". Hope that answers your question.
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
591
I am glad that you were able to get an SN for yourself, I wish you good luck for whenever you decide to ctb.
 
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mango000

mango000

wants to sleep forever
Nov 12, 2024
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,510
For some reason, I would have thought it would take much longer to ship. Glad it came in just over 2 weeks though!
 
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BlackDahlia62

New Member
Aug 5, 2024
4
dmc is a source for SN (sodium nitrite). saying the name of the site isnt allowed so we use an acronym
Yea I kind of figured but was hoping for the name . Sorry 🙂
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,510
Yea I kind of figured but was hoping for the name . Sorry 🙂
If it's any consolation, look around on the site enough and you can certainly find it. Or if you can wait, you can reply enough and build something of a reputation and sometimes people will help you.

No need to apologize though. People don't tend to get mad at others asking, it's just us being cautious and trying to guard the source so it doesn't get taken down.
 
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BlackDahlia62

New Member
Aug 5, 2024
4
If it's any consolation, look around on the site enough and you can certainly find it. Or if you can wait, you can reply enough and build something of a reputation and sometimes people will help you.

No need to apologize though. People don't tend to get mad at others asking, it's just us being cautious and trying to guard the source so it doesn't get taken down.
I totally get it . Just tired of suffering and this is the only place giving hope. Thank you!
 
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ihatemyselfwanttodi

ihatemyselfwanttodi

Experienced
Jan 26, 2025
296
I have nearly identical dates for my SN order as well. Weird to think someone else is out there doing this too at the same time.
 

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