SN doses

[Shu]

What do you feel the benefit os of taking a higher dose of SN rather than a lower one other than more getting absorbed quicker and the amount of time to unconscious? Do you feel like the symptoms would be lighter if you took a way smaller dose? 5g or ten grams for example? I know it gives you more time to think about it and possibly call for help but I'm just curious what people think. The PPeH mention several people being observed during the experience and they said that the report was peaceful but we don't know how much they took. I think the PPeH originally mentioned 5 to 7 grams at first right? Then it went up to 15 then to whatever it is now. Idk. I'm just interested in different perspectives

 

[Judy Garland]

There was a failure reported somewhere on here that a guy took only 2.5 grams to "test" it. He said he didn't have any pain from the SN and only experienced pain in the hospital with IVs and such. He said otherwise it was painless. Can't remember his username though.

EDIT: Failure was a poor choice of words. I only meant that suicide didn't succeed. He was doing this as an experience.

 

[Shu]

There was a failure reported somewhere on here that a guy took only 2.5 grams to "test" it. He said he didn't have any pain from the SN and only experienced pain in the hospital with IVs and such. He said otherwise it was painless. Can't remember his username though.

I know who you're talking about but I don't I think it was a failure I think he purposely did that for the documentation
We could be talking about different people though

 

[icetea15]

You might think of me? I took 2g as a test or as a documentation as you might call it…

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/testing-sn-how-to-get-to-hospital-fast.74903/

 

[WanderingWater]

TbH, due to medical history...heart attack and ischemic strokes to lower the dose. Then, reading about meto it's cardiac side.effect.
Replacing with omprezole.

Feel free to chime in.

Heart attacks are painful!

 

[jndons]

In the thread you mention you won't experience the year 2022, did you drop the ctb thing or you just delayed the job for another time?

You might think of me? I took 2g as a test or as a documentation as you might call it…

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/testing-sn-how-to-get-to-hospital-fast.74903/

 

[Judy Garland]

You might think of me? I took 2g as a test or as a documentation as you might call it…

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/testing-sn-how-to-get-to-hospital-fast.74903/

Yes :-) How are you? I've been thinking about you :-) I didn't mean to say that it you failed, I just meant that you were not intending to ctb at that moment.

 

[Dot]

There was a failure reported somewhere on here that a guy took only 2.5 grams to "test" it. He said he didn't have any pain from the SN and only experienced pain in the hospital with IVs and such. He said otherwise it was painless. Can't remember his username though.

EDIT: Failure was a poor choice of words. I only meant that suicide didn't succeed. He was doing this as an experience.

H/ also pt in2 hs drnk of soda whch wld hve dilutd / hd mre thn 50ml liqud

 

[icetea15]

Yes :-) How are you? I've been thinking about you :-) I didn't mean to say that it you failed, I just meant that you were not intending to ctb at that moment.

Physically in good condition, mentally still chronically suicidal, thank you for asking!
At a meta level it was not a failure like you corrected yourself because it was not my intention to ctb. Otherwise some can argue I took the risk to actually die by purposely taking the minimum lethal dosage even through I knew I was going to the hospital at a certain point.

And I knew this test could "go wrong" but see it through my perspective: Also in a certain point in your life where severe depression took over 50% of your young life and looking back on 10+ years of therapy: You really don't give a single f*ck about your life.

In the thread you mention you won't experience the year 2022, did you drop the ctb thing or you just delayed the job for another time?

It was planned in the end of 2021. But in one of the many weeks before I made a really bad choice by intentionally get off the road with my car into the forest at over 80-100km/h, crashing with my driver's side into a tree, and not getting a scratch from it. Instead I have to hear the paramedics say "That not only one guardian angel was behind you, but a whole army". For real, I was released from the hospital the same night. If any geek/freak here wants to find out anything about me, the crash was all over newspaper and also had a 1 minute segment at a TV station. Car crash was my 2nd choice to CTB and I felt on the way home that it was the right moment so I've done it. Like I mentioned above: I couldn't give a f*ck.

I was at the borderline between hell and death twice this year and both times destiny decided for hell (which apparently is also called "alive") so I decided that 2021 was not my year.

/////

But the question still remains: Was 2g enough?
If the doctors knew what substance I had consumed, the doctors probably would say: "Of course! Are you mental? What the f*ck is wron…" or something like that. But still: Every body is different. Some might have a good/bad metabolism, some may have a sensitive stomach. You really can't answer this question for everybody. There are so many factors (not just weight) involved here. I've put especially weight in brackets because you don't have to take over 35g just because you have a certain amount of fat/muscle/water in your body and somebody wrote that. Weight itself as a factor is divided into more factors (height, muscle, bodyfat, water etc.)…

But if you ask me how much SN I would take if I want to CTB right now, the answer is: Something between 5 to max 10g.

 

[Shu]

But if you ask me how much SN I would take if I want to CTB right now, the answer is: Something between 5 to max 10g.

Which was what was originally in the PPeH probably way more peaceful with benzos and propranolol added but takes way longer. I feel the symptoms wouldn't be a harsh though but who knows.