Venting SN arrived: not sure and nervous

[thethatsitboy]

My SN arrived today and i got an eye on it when arrived, i reaaly didn't know what to do. I am, like, all scared of having it and not being completely sure about ctb. But i already knew it. It is hard to having it here already. But i know it will pass and i will be fine with the idea of having it.
I am just scared today specifically. Just needed to put it out, since outside here i won't say that i have my suicidal substance. Thanks for reading

 

[kovkay]

My SN arrived today as well! I felt a bit nervous at first too, but now it's more excitement than anything (if you can call it that). Having it in your possession just makes it seem that much more real. The end is near.
I'd say give it a few days. As you said, the feeling will pass. There's no rush.

 

[SoIntoYou]

Apparently it lasts for years, so it'll always be there when you need it.

 

[thethatsitboy]

My SN arrived today as well! I felt a bit nervous at first too, but now it's more excitement than anything (if you can call it that). Having it in your possession just makes it seem that much more real. The end is near.
I'd say give it a few days. As you said, the feeling will pass. There's no rush.

Yeah, for me i am not too sure about that end. but wanted to have while is still legal. Thanks so much!

Apparently it lasts for years, so it'll always be there when you need it.

Mine is till october/2021 but i knew it. Thanks

 

[Isadeth]

If you're having second thoughts, even for a moment, just wait.

It's not going anywhere. ♡

 

[Living sucks]

Hide it and forget about it. It's ok to not be ready ..

 

[BitterlyAlive]

My SN arrived today and i got an eye on it when arrived, i reaaly didn't know what to do. I am, like, all scared of having it and not being completely sure about ctb. But i already knew it. It is hard to having it here already. But i know it will pass and i will be fine with the idea of having it.
I am just scared today specifically. Just needed to put it out, since outside here i won't say that i have my suicidal substance. Thanks for reading

It's okay to be afraid. When I received my SN, I wasn't really sure how I felt tbh. I just hid it and pulled it out every now and then when I felt especially bad, to remind myself that I have given myself the option to use it whenever (I'm planning on suicide in the next two or three months).