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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

Пиздюк
Jun 11, 2026
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Sleeping is basically the only thing I still kinda look forward to. I wake up and I immediately look forward to going to bed again. I mean ig there's still some little things, which bring me mby a lil bit of joy or at least comfort like buying Minecraft kinder joys or taking a shower outside during the night and looking up at the stars. I'm grateful that I can do that. But still, I sleep prob in total for half of the day or even more, it's escapism of some sort ig, but the alternative doesn't seem better. Like I wake up, work out, eat and try to sleep again. Being awake sucks, sleeping is at least sort of peaceful, even tough sometimes my thoughts won't let me fall asleep and it takes hours. Fuck my life is just so dull, it's actually insane. There's plenty of things I want to do, but I don't have anyone to do them with and it's just not the same alone u know.
Well anyways, I'm going to bed now
Good night to everyone, who also goes to sleep now
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Blood is Red, and Sweet as Cherry Wine
Jun 14, 2026
225
I get that, mate. Sleeping is really the best part of the day. Even just lying in bed, for me really... You can kinda forget about all your problems, and just lie there kinda... Peaceful. I hope death is like sleep. It's nice. No worries, yeah? Goodnight, mate♥️
 
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Lamentice

Lamentice

Walk without rhythm and you won't attract the worm
Mar 27, 2023
410
Goodnight! Hope it feels like the sleep last a really long time :)
 
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mustard tiger

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Mar 27, 2026
41
its like being dead for just a little while
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
688
sleep is ✨free unconsciousness ✨
 
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Disabledfromjump7

Disabledfromjump7

This should never have happened.
Jul 27, 2026
88
I go to bed knowing I will wake up disabled and do it all again and again. It's awful to be honest. The other option is to stay awake in pain.
 
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otomedissection

otomedissection

a boring life with feelings too frail to touch
Jun 19, 2026
39
I love any opportunity for sleep! I know too much of a good thing can have its consequences, but it's so nice to just be completely unburdened by the world just for a little bit. I always relate to those moments in Howl's Moving Castle where Sophie is completely back to her normal appearance whenever she's asleep because she's totally at rest and unable to channel all of her negative feelings toward herself.
 
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final.call

Member
Aug 16, 2024
17
Yeah true. Anyone wanna sleep with me?
 
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Live_Life55

Live_Life55

Student
Jul 16, 2026
138
Imagine having severe akathisia leading to horrific insomnia and you're in physical and mental anguish 24/7. Death seems like the perfect rest for some of us in total agony.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,149
Sleep and food are my favorite parts of the day. Also, any time I can drink alcohol and then eat and sleep. Doing those three things together is so nice when I get the opportunity!
 
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