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The call of the void
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Probably, but you have no control over that. The incident, which leads to impulsivity, you can not plan or initiate, because then it is no longer impulsivity. I believe, going in full peace with a smile in the last minutes is the best way to overcome SI.
xLosthopex
Tell my dogs I love them
- May 29, 2020
- 1,133
I've been thinking about this as well, I have BPD so struggle with extreme impulsivity anyway, and all my past ctb attempts were impulsive and irrational and SI didn't really effect me at all like it does now, which is cruelly ironic considering this is the one time it's actually a rational decision
Maybe I could find a way to somehow channel my impulsivity during the final moments leading up to ctb to help me overcome my SI
Ch92921
The call of the void
- Dec 29, 2018
- 909
I will do it with impulsivity. Im very impulsive by nature(genetic). I get very fast very extrem into rage even cause of small things. Its
Was this impulsivity? Two week ago I came home. Then first I cried. Then I screamed thT I would ctb. Addition I stamped very hard because of anger. Then I punch my fists into my bed. My heart bet very fast. My rational brain stared to calm, cause I believed I really could ctb next.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,628
I believe I will be able to overcome the SI when I reach a point of desperation, when I have reached my limit and I cannot take anymore. Of course the SI is difficult to overcome as we are programmed to survive after all. If it was easier to leave, I would already be gone. I wish you the best.
Ch92921
The call of the void
- Dec 29, 2018
- 909
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