Should I add anything extra?

[lostmywhimsy]

Please please respond to this.

I have six 15ml bottles of visine that contains tetrahydrozoline.

I know I will probably fail and nothing will happen to me. But I really really have no other way to try. And I can't even imagine to think of living anymore.

Please let me try this. Please. Please.

My question:

1. I'm planning to drink it by adding it to (cold) coffee because drinking it directly would make me throw up. Do you think something in coffee will neutralize the effect of tetrahydrozoline? I know it's a dumb question, but I don't want to end up like before like nothing happened.
2. Should I any take tablets to worsen the chances of living so that I'll die? Like I have my mom's bp and diabetes tablets. Should I take them too?
3. Is there a way to buy more visine within 2 or 3 days through dark web or something? Because it's not easy to buy it here and the only way to buy is to order through amazon or flipkart.

I know the number one advice would be to not do this. But I'm so tired. What if it did work and I get to die like I wanted?

If I didn't die then at least people will understand that I'm not lying about my mental health and that I'm actually suffering.

I swear I'm not doing this for attention seeking. I really want to die. I have attempted before. Now, I'm in a situation where I can't afford the other methods and can't go outside to do the other methods.

I'm so sorry for doing this.

I don't want this to be like the previous attempt where I woke up like shit but nothing happened. It was like I never attempted at all.

Please please let me die. I don't want anything else other than death.

Please.
should i post this in the other group?