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yaa

yaa

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Dec 7, 2024
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Im scared because I um.. I don't wanna live anymore..
When I tried to tell my mom how I didn't wanna live an do this anymore she said if I say something like that again she'll report me an have them lock me up because Im not supposed to say stuff like that so.. no surprise I uh.. cant depend on her nor my family of Christian freakazoids..

my experience as well as everyone else has sucked.. I haven't worked in a while. At my last job they were quiet firing me so I wouldn't get unemployment. Didn't like me cuz I kept to myself an barely did my job getting paid 12.50 .. I worked in the warehouse an since we didn't have any chairs I used my garbage can to lean my ass on the lid because they wouldn't give me or anyone else a chair.
You know how jobs are they treat you like a prisoner, no ear buds, no chairs because it's unprofessional to be comfortable?? Can't just go to the bathroom when you like, excuse me but who's the one needing workers? They don't have a right to treat us like that, are we not beings with feelings?
This isn't the only time but my assistant manager didn't like that I put my ass on the lid of this gigantic plastic hard trashcan.
My legs were sore.. I hate standing for no reason.. when I'm not at work or other people we sit when we feel like it right? Go to the bathroom when we feel like it.. eat when we feel like it..

So controlling. Same as school was..

But no you're a slave, you don't have any rights you do as you're told.

Amanda the bitch manager, She said I could damage the companies trash can and to get off of it.

Even told me to get a doctor's note to sit on it (I did) I asked for the employee handbook that states I can't do that, she ofc didn't give me it. I told her you're more worried about an I animate object then the being sitting on it.
Dehumanizing right?
Told my mom about how I was treated but guess who got blamed?
Me for not listening and doing what the slave master told me to do.

Always my fault.

After I went home my hours shortened more and more when I came back the next week she removed all the trash cans in the facility. I cursed her out and then quit. Haven't worked for months. I told her without the workers this company wouldn't be shit so you need to learn how to treat other beings with respect otherwise someone is gonna humble you. She told one of the employees to call the cops (true story) because I was putting her in her place. I don't know what's gonna happen to me. I have section 8 and food stamps and I hope I can get on disability. I hate life and all the unfairness and suffering but most of all I hate that I'm forced to put myself in a stressful situation (a job) that disrespects me an treats me less then an inanimate object. People are okay with being told how to act, being treated like shit. Can't relate I'll stick up for myself. Whole society likes being oppressed and they don't take down this shitty system that doesn't benefit us and abuses us daily. Etc anyways I rather die an be homeless then work again. I don't even wanna be here. I don't want this life. I don't want anything I dont even want to interact with another human again really because I'm sick of their optimism. They're mentally ill. The lots of them lack emotional intelligence, they lack critical thinking skills. Hella sheep mentality. It hurts because I just wanna die. I want out of here. Call me lazy or too pessimistic or entitled for not wanting a life that abuses me an others for no reason an treats us like shit. I'm done im tired
 
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futurebuscatcher

futurebuscatcher

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Sep 15, 2024
101
I get it. Life is so exhausting and I'm so tired of being told how it's a blessing I'm wasting. Half of all mental issues woukd be resolved if he just had a safety cushion or better resources. Been bounced through so many psychologists that swear they can 'cure' me and then call me crazy when it doesn't work.

You aren't alone in this.
 
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yaa

yaa

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Dec 7, 2024
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They always wanna blame you and say you're the problem but not the damn world or the other beings in it.. fuck em
 
TheOneFreeDude

TheOneFreeDude

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Dec 8, 2024
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I feel like suicide is the type of thing you can speak freely about only with people in the same situation or someone you're absolutely sure won't take action to stop you.
You're not alone in this.
 
Tig

Tig

Student
Oct 17, 2024
171
At 59, ive seen all this playing out before, owned my own contracting business because i didn't like people like Amanda,
Always critical, never happy unless they putting others down,
Back in the day, I would have stuffed her in the trash can and sat on the lid to take my break.
Nobody deserves to be treated like a slave.
This world is just not for some of us, seems like money is the only thing matters anymore.
Love, understanding, peace, helping one another, are all lost to this shithole we all live in now.
Glad I'm going soon, I've already seen far to much of it.
It's sadistic world at best.
Better to have ever known this existence.
 

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