Self harm with a cannula

[Idkwhattopick]

Does anyone else self harm by blood letting with a cannula?

I started doing it after stealing a cannula from a hospital when I was in for other mental health related reasons. I figured out pretty quick how to get a vein and I've been addicted ever since. I got new needles on Amazon lol.

It completely consumes me and I don't even know how to begin stopping, it's so much more intense than before when I just cut myself.
My therapist doesn't like it obvs and keeps telling me to get rid of the needles but I just cannot do it, I literally need them ffs.

I've fainted a few times since starting and my arm looks pretty wrecked, but the feeling I get when I see all the blood is genuinely better than any drug I've ever had

I feel quite like alone in it and I'm so curious if there's anyone else here that I can talk to about it

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I have never heard of that but can certainly understand the appeal.

 

[Phosphate mate]

Hi Cannula commoner here,

From being in hospital a lot - cannulas turned my arms black and blue for a bit.

I get the letting is probably addictive, although this will turn your veins into spaghetti width tubes and not in a tasty way - you'll just fuck your chances of getting blood out of them or an entry into your bloodtream for any pain treatment.

Up to you. But I remember the picture of my arms after I'd had months in there.