Resurrection? Death again.

[Harleyyy]

Hey you all, as you may have know i posted a goodbye thread but things went downhill and i was unable to ctb. Rough.
but today is finally the day, im going to hang.
i need some support please, i feel terribly alone.
and guilty too!
i keep thinking of the peace i will get after this.
lots of love to you all <3

 

[profoundexperience]

today is finally the day, im going to hang. ... i need some support please, i feel terribly alone. ...and guilty too!

You're not alone. What do you think the feelings of guilt are about? Can you release them now? Please try to.

I wholeheartedly offer you this Buddhist prayer... for you both right now in this very moment and, if you must, for whatever may come.

May you be free of suffering, @Harleyyy.
May you have mental happiness, @Harleyyy.
May you have physical happiness, @Harleyyy.
May you have ease of well being, @Harleyyy.

 

[Harleyyy]

You're not alone. What do you think the feelings of guilt are about? Can you release them now? Please try to.

I wholeheartedly offer you this Buddhist prayer... for you both right now in this very moment and, if you must, for whatever may come.

May you be free of suffering, @Harleyyy.
May you have mental happiness, @Harleyyy.
May you have physical happiness, @Harleyyy.
May you have ease of well being, @Harleyyy.

Guilt of leaving my family in pain.

 

[profoundexperience]

There are things we can control and things we can't control, right? We can't control other people (believe me, I've tried ). Other people are entitled to their emotions... and at some point we probably need to allow them to have them. Unfortunately, we're all born into a tenacious web of mutual dependency: You may want to go, but they want you to stay.... Who should be the "decider" in that?

Have you done anything to try to make it easier for them?

Also, this guilt can be protective against suicide. Is it maybe enough to keep you going a bit longer (albeit maybe a negative reason)?

 

[Harleyyy]

There are things we can control and things we can't control, right? We can't control other people (believe me, I've tried ). Other people are entitled to their emotions... and at some point we probably need to allow them to have them. Unfortunately, we're all born into a tenacious web of mutual dependency: You may want to go, but they want you to stay.... Who should be the "decider" in that?

Have you done anything to try to make it easier for them?

Also, this guilt can be protective against suicide. Is it maybe enough to keep you going a bit longer (albeit maybe a negative reason)?

This is going to be my second attempt. I dont think i can stay now.
thank you for talking with me. sending you love.

 

[St. Jimmy]

Sending you love, as well. I know that it wasn't easy to come to this decision. I hope that you are able to find peace, no matter what happens.

 

[profoundexperience]

I dont think i can stay now.

Okay. I wish you much wellness and leave you with a version of the Tao Te Ching, chapter 10....

Can you coax your mind from its wandering... and keep to the original oneness?
Can you cleanse your inner vision... until you see nothing but the light?
Can you love people and leave them... without imposing your will?
Can you deal with the most vital matters... by letting events take their course?
Can you step back from your own mind... and thus understand all things?
Acting with no expectations... this is the supreme virtue.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

How are you doing? Still with us?

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Hi there, we'll be here for any support you need. :)

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[Toptock]

Regardless of what you encounter next, i trust you'll find the strength to face it. I hope you've found your peace.

 

[palebluedot]

Are you still with us? Can we do anything for you? If you need anything or anybody to talk to before you make an irreversible decision I would be so glad to help. If you just need people to be here for you during this time, I'd love to do that too. Just know that you're not alone