Remembering childhood / memory problems

[demuic]

Does anyone else experience problems with remembering your childhood or most of your life? But you didn't really go through extreme trauma / abuse?

For example, I can't remember most of my childhood (before about age 15) . In recent years with high school, I choose not to dwell on those years as high school was painful, isolating, infuriating. However recently, I did come to the realization (from reading another thread) that my life before HS was not so much better than during/after, I was only idealizing the past because HS was so bad. But I can clearly recall being just as desperate to leave middle school at graduation as I was HS. Because I was also somewhat isolated, but it wasn't as bad as it got to be going into HS and now (after). Such as in middle school, I had two close friends, and a circle of other friends who I could talk to and wanted to hang out with me. Now I have only one friend..

 

[deleted]

My first memories are of childhood traumas, I just wanted to do with these motherfuckers everything they did to me when I didn't have the strength to defend myself

 

[_Minsk]

Does anyone else experience problems with remembering your childhood or most of your life? But you didn't really go through extreme trauma / abuse?

yes i do too but i also have issues with memory in general. stress is a big factor when it comes to these remembering issues for me. even though i used (and still do for the sake of coping) to sugarcoat most experiences in my life, after all, if im honest, life was and is full of trauma and stress. i think no one has to get abused in order to get traumatized.

 

[death137]

I remember well my childhood. It was great then.

 

[Birdie]

There are days I can't remember much, everything seems blurry. And there are days they are way too vivid.

 

[foxdie]

My childhood is mostly just a fog with a few memories scattered here and there. It's difficult for me to recall most of it, I assume I've repressed a lot.

 

[Homecoming]

I have traumatic chilhood, and I remember it vividly, because it was so violent and brutal.

 

[Captive of Mind]

My memory is so shit and my childhood seems empty because I can't remember much of it. Inability to remember things is definitely a reason for ctb.

 

[Misfit72]

My memory is so shit and my childhood seems empty because I can't remember much of it. Inability to remember things is definitely a reason for ctb.

I'm the opposite - I remember too much of my childhood, and adulthood, and it feels like everything bad that has happened to me happened today.

 

[Captive of Mind]

I'm the opposite - I remember too much of my childhood, and adulthood, and it feels like everything bad that has happened to me happened today.

That has got to be a lot harder to deal with. Trauma from my adult life does that to me though. It's just my childhood that feels erased.

 

[Misfit72]

That has got to be a lot harder to deal with. Trauma from my adult life does that to me though. It's just my childhood that feels erased.

It is - my mother died when I was six, and while it didn't hit me at the time, as I wasn't taken to her funeral, it hit me four years later when I was taken to her grave, after which I was expected to be able to process it and get over it. If my father predeceases me, I'm boycotting his funeral.

The adulthood problems I had are unrelated, I don't see them as being caused by my childhood ones, more my own personal inadequacies, like defeatism, but the latter have come to the surface in a big way.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i can remember important bits that made me feel something (whether it was good or bad), but there's a certain memory i can't remember the entirety of, no matter how hard i try. i don't know if i want to remember it, though.