Discussion Realistically, do you think that I could have the willpower/strength/courage to kill myself by cutting my femoral artery?

[straw.berryy729]

Or should I just give up on that idea? I know that if I cut my femoral artery, death is pretty much guaranteed if I don't get immediate medical attention. I'm just so so so desperate at this point. I made a terrible terrible mistake which made my already miserable life so so so much worse, I couldn't have even imagined. I have very limited choice for methods so I feel I am forced to go with this method which I know will be excruciatingly painful, will not be peaceful at all, has a high chance of failure, and will leave a huge, ugly, traumatizing mess behind for whoever finds me. Trust me this is not the way I want to go, though the main thing that is making me hesitate is the pain. If there was no pain involved I think I might willingly choose this method even though it is gruesome. I wish I had some lidocaine... I know that cutting is a method that is highly advised against and will most likely leave me alive and worse off than before, but I just don't know what to do anymore. I need to die. I'm just hoping that I can use all the rage and desperation and other negative emotions to just commit to it and slash myself open. Once the artery is cut, it shouldn't be too long until I pass out and die soon after, then I can finally be at peace.

 

[grapevoid]

No. Honestly, I think this would be extremely difficult to carry out not only because of pain but because major arteries are strategically placed in the body in places they are protected by other things so getting to them isn't necessarily "easy"
I think attempting this carries a high risk of just ending up in a psych ward, in pain, with no good pain meds because you just tried to kill yourself.

 

[straw.berryy729]

No. Honestly, I think this would be extremely difficult to carry out not only because of pain but because major arteries are strategically placed in the body in places they are protected by other things so getting to them isn't necessarily "easy"
I think attempting this carries a high risk of just ending up in a psych ward, in pain, with no good pain meds because you just tried to kill yourself.

Thank you for your reply. Though it's not what I wanted to hear, but it is what I expected.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

You don't have to answer this obviously, but what should I do?

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[straw.berryy729]

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Thank you for letting me know. That's completely my bad, I'm so sorry. I deleted that part of my message immediately. I really didn't mean to break any rules.

 

[SVEN]

In all honesty, no.

 

[TheBlackSwordsman]

I'm just so so so desperate at this point. I made a terrible terrible mistake which made my already miserable life so so so much worse, I couldn't have even imagined.

I put myself in a similar position so I can sympathize with you. I'm stuck as well. I don't think I can complete any of the methods, most effective or least effective. I do also worry about the trauma of someone finding me especially if I use a method that leaves a mess. Idk what I'm going to do. Wish there was just a pill you could take, you close your eyes and that's it.

 

[straw.berryy729]

I put myself in a similar position so I can sympathize with you. I'm stuck as well. I don't think I can complete any of the methods, most effective or least effective. I do also worry about the trauma of someone finding me especially if I use a method that leaves a mess. Idk what I'm going to do. Wish there was just a pill you could take, you close your eyes and that's it.

I'm sorry to hear that. It's so hard to feel so stuck like this. I just want to end my life but it's so hard. Things are so difficult and unbearable yet I'm forced to keep going. It is beyond devastating. I don't know how I keep living when I feel so awful. This is torture. I think I could hang myself but I live with my family and I am almost never home alone and I really do not want them finding my body, but I am getting so desperate that I might have to do that. I can't keep living like this.

 

[Halfhourdays]

I put myself in a similar position so I can sympathize with you. I'm stuck as well. I don't think I can complete any of the methods, most effective or least effective. I do also worry about the trauma of someone finding me especially if I use a method that leaves a mess. Idk what I'm going to do. Wish there was just a pill you could take, you close your eyes and that's it.

I wish I could just buy a gun.