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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,648
10 being the highest rating
1 being the lowest
Love 2
Friends 2
Home 3
Money 2
Job 1
Health 3
parents 3
overall i rate it a 2 a shit lifetime
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
360
Love 0
Friends 2
Home 8
Money 8
Job 0
Health 8
Parents 10
 
Mr. Incapable

Mr. Incapable

Also inadequate, incompetent, weak & powerless
Jun 21, 2022
175
Love 0 (None, asexual)
Friends 0 (No friends)
Home 1 (Losing my home, gonna be homeless soon)
Money 1 (Literally surviving by selling my belongings on eBay. Can only afford to eat cheap and basic foods and just about afford my bills)
Job 0 (Unemployed for 2 years now)
Health 8 (Fairly healthy I guess)
parents 7 (Good parents with typical flaws)

Overall I rate it a 1 because I wouldn't wish my life, mind or body on my worst enemy. Just a pitiful, sad existence I have.
 
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Klophy

Lost...
Jun 28, 2022
207
Love: 0, No one
Friends: 0, No friends
Home: 8, Live with parents
Money: 0, No money
Job: 0, No job
Health: 6, A few physical issues, mostly mental
Parents: 7, Source of my problems, they turned their life around.

Overall a 3
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,581
I just do not think that life has any quality personally. I was forced to exist and I never wanted any of this. Life is such a pointless and unnecessary experience and to me there is nothing really positive about being alive. It seems that in a life like this it is impossible to escape from suffering. Nothing could ever make me want to stay here and I will always prefer the sound of non existence. It is sad how so many people are trapped in such awful lives, but life is extremely cruel and unfair after all.
 
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September5th

September5th

You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
May 17, 2022
244
Love: 0 (don't even need to explain what happened at this point)
Friends: 10 (my best friend is literally saving my life since the break-up and even before that)
Home: 6 (live in a nice pension, but in the middle of nowhere)
Money: 0 (crazy to think that I was working and making money a couple of months ago)
Job: 0
Health: 9
Parents: 8
SCORE: 4.7 (fuck)

Let's compare it to last year, just to see how much I fucked things up in numbers.

Love: 10 (healthy relationship with my literal best friend, happened naturally, love her and her family)
Friends: 10
Home: 8 (my room needed a renovation of sorts, but I lived in a well located apartment, in my city, close to my girlfriend)
Money: 8
Job: 9 (projects were coming all the time, precisely when I needed them)
Health: 10
Parents: 8
SCORE: 9

Yeah, I fucked things up. Hard XD! I'm a joke!
 
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Anonymus

Enlightened
May 6, 2022
1,355
Love 0 (I have no partner)
Friends 0 (I killed the only relationship I had 11 days ago)
Home 0 (I want to leave home since many years ago)
Money 2 (I have savings... but without sufficient sustained income they are useless)
Job 0 (I don't work)
Health 3 (I don't know how to value it, I have a 73% disability, that's why a 3, because I have 27% of health left)
Parents ? (I don't want to value my 78 and 86 years old parents, it would be very unfair)

SCORE: 5+?/7=X...🤔
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,592
Love 0 (haven't felt that in over 25 years)
Friends 1 (I have one I speak with very infrequently, but he's married, so it's not much. We don't do anything together)
Home 2 (I have one, but it sucks because I'm alone. Anything I do is alone)
Money 5 (I'm not rich, but not destitute either)
Job 0 (don't have one)
Health 5 (I have some health issues, nothing major yet, but sure they're on the way)
parents 0 (they're both dead)

I'll add another one:

Family 0 (All my family is dead)

1.6 Avg....so pretty shitty, also.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Love: 0
Friends: 0
Home: 3 (good home but it's not mine, would also prefer to live alone).
Money: 0
Job: 0
Health: 4 (good immune system but bad cardio and slow recovery from exercise).
Parents: 0 (would rather not have been born, they provided me with the genes and environment leading to this).

Overall: 1/10. Something like physical pain/mental illnesses should be added, and maybe hobbies. Aside from that, I think you included what's most important to most people.
 
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Sniffer

Member
Jul 12, 2022
75
Love 8
Friends 8
Home 7
Money 8
Job 0
Health 0
Parents 0

Basically fucked by severe Tinnitus. If that was treatable I would not be here.
 
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sadwife

sadwife

Always unloved
Jul 24, 2022
11
Love 3- abusive husband
Friends 5- good people but all very Surface level
Home 7- good location, can't complain
Money 3- have money but no income so going down
Job 0- no job
Health 2- mental health is in shambles
Parents 2- abusive alcoholics
Overall- 3.1
 
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hopelessandconfused

Member
Jun 12, 2022
15
Love 1, but I no longer care about that sort of stuff anyway
Friends 5
Home 2, but once I move in a couple weeks will be an 8
Money 5
Job 1
Health 7
Mom 8
Dad 1

Overall 3.75, but feels like a 1 to me.
 
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HappyForever?

Love from the deepest dream
Feb 14, 2021
325
Love 0 (main reason for CTBing)
Friends 4 (a few friends, not that I care)
Home 7 (live with parents, they respect my privacy)
Money 8 (enough money for anything I want)
Job 0 (still in college, 8 if you count education)
Health 9 (perfectly healthy physically, slight mental problems)
Parents 7 (good enough, sometimes short tempered)
Overall a 5, a solid 6 if you count my education as job.
Lack of love ruins it all though.
 
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Sky66

Member
Dec 15, 2021
54
Love 10 (best spouse in the world)
Friends 8 (amazing friends)
Home 7 (average home)
Money 5 (I was wealthy. Not anymore after health problems)
Job 0 (I had the best job in the word. Not anymore after health problems)
Health 0 (cancer and a lot of chronic illniss caused by the cancer)
Parents 6 (had a great relationship with my parents. Not anymore after health problems)

Overall: 1 (health is the most important thing in the world)
 
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thelookingontheway

thelookingontheway

Member
Jul 15, 2022
46
Love 0
Friends 6
Home 3
Money 0
Job 0
Health 3
parents 5
 
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Sniffer

Member
Jul 12, 2022
75
Love 10 (best spouse in the world)
Friends 8 (amazing friends)
Home 7 (average home)
Money 5 (I was wealthy. Not anymore after health problems)
Job 0 (I had the best job in the word. Not anymore after health problems)
Health 0 (cancer and a lot of chronic illniss caused by the cancer)
Parents 6 (had a great relationship with my parents. Not anymore after health problems)

Overall: 1 (health is the most important thing in the world)

I'm so sorry health has stolen your life. I too am in the same boat, my love to you.
 
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Symbiote

Illuminated
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
Love 8
Friends 1
Home 10 (paid off home)
Money 10 (no debt)
Job 10 (stable job)
Health 5
Parents 1

QOL: 6.42
 

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