MoonBloom
Introverted broke college student
- Oct 17, 2023
- 10
Okay so I just want to rant this out, thank you to anyone taking their time reading this
So I have this online best friend, we've been actively talking, playing, doing whatnot online for 7 months now and I have come to find out that he likes my other friend and plans to visit her(she's a country away).
Nothing wrong with that I'm happy for them but why do I feel suddenly lost though. Tbh this my first time having a guy-girl friendship that didn't turn into anything and we both established that right(only friends) but I guess there are times when we did stuff or smth happens that kinda crosses the friendship boundary but not enough for it to be romantic but just as jokes, but like it's alot of the jokes to the point where it kinda messes with me you know. And now that I find out he likes someone else I'm starting to question all the stuff in our friendship we're doing like, "oh is this romantic or just being friendly" cause again first time having a guy girl bff friendship thing lol
I'm not the type to overthink but for some reason I am, I wouldn't say I'm hurt but idk I'm thrown off. Idk what's wrong with me. Maybe it's cause now I'm thinking if they do get together or become a couple then what gonna happen to me? I thought we'd be bff's for life, well not that long lmao but yk what I mean for a long time we'd just be chilling with each other. Throughout our friendship a thought did cross my mind what if we did end up together cause there have been some people who thought we were dating cause we hang out everyday and play together all the time and rarely seen separated.
This is probably on me tho for even thinking that in the first place and letting my thoughts and imaginations menifest to that, maybe that's why I'm feeling the way I am but wouldn't really describe it as feeling heartbroken or hurts it's just the feeling of being humbled? is how I can describe it.
Now I'm left with this question for myself, how do I cope with this?
So I have this online best friend, we've been actively talking, playing, doing whatnot online for 7 months now and I have come to find out that he likes my other friend and plans to visit her(she's a country away).
Nothing wrong with that I'm happy for them but why do I feel suddenly lost though. Tbh this my first time having a guy-girl friendship that didn't turn into anything and we both established that right(only friends) but I guess there are times when we did stuff or smth happens that kinda crosses the friendship boundary but not enough for it to be romantic but just as jokes, but like it's alot of the jokes to the point where it kinda messes with me you know. And now that I find out he likes someone else I'm starting to question all the stuff in our friendship we're doing like, "oh is this romantic or just being friendly" cause again first time having a guy girl bff friendship thing lol
I'm not the type to overthink but for some reason I am, I wouldn't say I'm hurt but idk I'm thrown off. Idk what's wrong with me. Maybe it's cause now I'm thinking if they do get together or become a couple then what gonna happen to me? I thought we'd be bff's for life, well not that long lmao but yk what I mean for a long time we'd just be chilling with each other. Throughout our friendship a thought did cross my mind what if we did end up together cause there have been some people who thought we were dating cause we hang out everyday and play together all the time and rarely seen separated.
This is probably on me tho for even thinking that in the first place and letting my thoughts and imaginations menifest to that, maybe that's why I'm feeling the way I am but wouldn't really describe it as feeling heartbroken or hurts it's just the feeling of being humbled? is how I can describe it.
Now I'm left with this question for myself, how do I cope with this?
