Story Psychological torture of being trapped at home

[Tyra]

I'm trapped. Certain circumstances has made it so I can't leave home.

I can't leave home, I have 0 friends, 0 online friends.

My room is completely painted white with no pictures at all on it. The light in my room is bright white LED.

Everything I loved is gone. I don't have anything anymore.

It feels like psychological torture.

I stay up super late every night thinking about how I can escape.

I see no one. I talk to no one.

Someone on here said my name in their reply the other day and remembered a small detail of something I said, it made me feel human for a short period of time.

But the worst psychological torture is having to wait till my family vacation is over so I can finally do it. It just feels so bad hearing my mom talk about how excited she is about the vacation…

I'm trying so hard to keep going but everyday I feel like I'm melting away more and more.

 

[forfever]

im with you. its hell

 

[Tyra]

im with you. its hell

Life is a prison. Even if I wasn't trapped in this house, I would be trapped in other ways.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Sorry to ask, but all that you loved that's gone, what was it?

 

[Salkak]

I am kind of in a similar situation. Live ith my family so can't do anything about ctb. Just stuck here

 

[Widow39]

Seems a damn jail cell, or you exaggerate, or it's almost torture what they do to you. If I was you I would hang myself right there, omg.

 

[Tyra]

Seems a damn jail cell, or you exaggerate, or it's almost torture what they do to you. If I was you I would hang myself right there, omg.

It's probably not that bad. It just feels very bad because I'm probably depressed.

 

[Widow39]

Yes sometimes we see things differently depending the mindset.

They do this because they know you are suicidal?

 

[Tyra]

Yes sometimes we see things differently depending the mindset.

They do this because they know you are suicidal?

They do it because they are afraid something bad will happen to me. They are over protective.

Sorry to ask, but all that you loved that's gone, what was it?

Why do you ask

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

They do it because they are afraid something bad will happen to me. They are over protective.

Why do you ask

Sorry, just curious, making conversation.

 

[Gloomic]

I hold a similar feeling. Many people do not understand the trapped feeling of being kept at home. There are plenty of people who relish being at home, but they have the freedom to choose that. It's not just about being at home, it's about not having a choice.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I'm trapped too. It's prison And feels like I will never be a human... just a creature floating in a confined space. :(

 

[SomewhereNew]

I'm sorry you are going through being trapped id like to share I'm in a similar situation though I'm older and this house is dirty and decrepit and moldy. I also have no friends and talk to maybe like 2 family members sometimes. I hope you feel better.

 

[VirtualWorldIsBette]

I'm trapped. Certain circumstances has made it so I can't leave home.

I can't leave home, I have 0 friends, 0 online friends.

My room is completely painted white with no pictures at all on it. The light in my room is bright white LED.

Everything I loved is gone. I don't have anything anymore.

It feels like psychological torture.

I stay up super late every night thinking about how I can escape.

I see no one. I talk to no one.

Someone on here said my name in their reply the other day and remembered a small detail of something I said, it made me feel human for a short period of time.

But the worst psychological torture is having to wait till my family vacation is over so I can finally do it. It just feels so bad hearing my mom talk about how excited she is about the vacation…

I'm trying so hard to keep going but everyday I feel like I'm melting away more and more.

Same here! Lost my job shortly after graduating and now live full time at home. My room feels barren. I have no friends, I gave up on dating apps (Little matches and conversation always seemed uninteresting). Every day I wake up with this angry and depressed energy and I really feel trapped. I just want the pain to go away

I hold a similar feeling. Many people do not understand the trapped feeling of being kept at home. There are plenty of people who relish being at home, but they have the freedom to choose that. It's not just about being at home, it's about not having a choice.

I wish I could go out and try to spend time with people but going out in public just makes me want to burst into tears cause everyone seems to be having relationships, living their lives, and having fun. It's overwhelming

 

[doneforlife]

I'm trapped. Certain circumstances has made it so I can't leave home.

I can't leave home, I have 0 friends, 0 online friends.

My room is completely painted white with no pictures at all on it. The light in my room is bright white LED.

Everything I loved is gone. I don't have anything anymore.

It feels like psychological torture.

I stay up super late every night thinking about how I can escape.

I see no one. I talk to no one.

Someone on here said my name in their reply the other day and remembered a small detail of something I said, it made me feel human for a short period of time.

But the worst psychological torture is having to wait till my family vacation is over so I can finally do it. It just feels so bad hearing my mom talk about how excited she is about the vacation…

I'm trying so hard to keep going but everyday I feel like I'm melting away more and more.

Sorry for the way you are feeling. It can really be overwhelming!. Kindly don't think about the far future. Overthinking is painful. Think about just the next hour ..may be. Do you find anything engaging, joyful ? Comfort food , a tv show may be? Focus on that .. take one hour at a time...