Aren
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- Jun 15, 2026
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Hello, context this the sequel of my thread "2 Night before i can't escape", i choose to not jump the last night because my mom tell me to try everything i could to be in better mental health because the day After i could see some memories of my girlfriend who died since 1 month after 10 years together and our projet of mariage in August 2026 + lost my appartement and job after. But the plot twist is : yes the thing that i tried help me for 2-3 hours but After and until now it's hell.
I'm now in a situation where i have been forced to move to my parent's house in my teenager bedroom but the room is now nearly empty unless some big and strong closet like a big rectangle with no visible anchor.
I tried, it did not help and i'm suffering.
So 2 solutions but 2 methods :
1) PSH in bedroom, i already have rope, nearly my sweetspot to pass out but no Idea where to put the rope in the room. Before in my appartement i tried with a door but now it's not possible because my parents will see the rope from the other side. Maybe the window... Or the door handle while sitting, lying down, or kneeling...
So my question is : in a room with nearly no stuff what can i use to have an ancor and use the rope ? And if you have something that i have to buy, i'm open to listen.
2) Get Back to where i belong (where my girlfriend died) and lived before today. It's 2H30 road trip. It's a bridge with 3 ways of road on it, but at night between 2 am and 4 am it's nearly desert. The issue is : when i was near the bridge SI is very strong and make me think a "may be try this to be good"... Of course it did not work, it was an illusion, and it was a waste of opportunity. And now i have the SI to handle with a determination of 2H30 of road trip alone. But this bridge has no Survivors registered in years. A drop of 4 secondes 219 feets in dark water.
I would appreciate any opinions on the choice between the two methods, as well as feedback on the chosen method in relation to the situation, please.
A thing is clear, i have to catch the bus because loose everything and get back with abusive parents when i'm an adulte + grief is a nightmare. Please share your knowledge and every ideas are welcome.
I'm now in a situation where i have been forced to move to my parent's house in my teenager bedroom but the room is now nearly empty unless some big and strong closet like a big rectangle with no visible anchor.
I tried, it did not help and i'm suffering.
So 2 solutions but 2 methods :
1) PSH in bedroom, i already have rope, nearly my sweetspot to pass out but no Idea where to put the rope in the room. Before in my appartement i tried with a door but now it's not possible because my parents will see the rope from the other side. Maybe the window... Or the door handle while sitting, lying down, or kneeling...
So my question is : in a room with nearly no stuff what can i use to have an ancor and use the rope ? And if you have something that i have to buy, i'm open to listen.
2) Get Back to where i belong (where my girlfriend died) and lived before today. It's 2H30 road trip. It's a bridge with 3 ways of road on it, but at night between 2 am and 4 am it's nearly desert. The issue is : when i was near the bridge SI is very strong and make me think a "may be try this to be good"... Of course it did not work, it was an illusion, and it was a waste of opportunity. And now i have the SI to handle with a determination of 2H30 of road trip alone. But this bridge has no Survivors registered in years. A drop of 4 secondes 219 feets in dark water.
I would appreciate any opinions on the choice between the two methods, as well as feedback on the chosen method in relation to the situation, please.
A thing is clear, i have to catch the bus because loose everything and get back with abusive parents when i'm an adulte + grief is a nightmare. Please share your knowledge and every ideas are welcome.