Propane Explosion

[LookingGlassOfSorrow]

I want to die but I'm scared of a propane explosion. I'm alone and I want to die. I want to suffer because FAULT but I won't blow up on purpose. I just want to die.

 

[sleepy dog]

How old are you?

 

[LookingGlassOfSorrow]

Who are you first of all

 

[Guizin239]

sounds complicated and dangerous to other people. have you researched other methods?

 

[Ark]

Are you planning on using an exit bag and your worried about it exploding? I apologize, I am just trying to figure out what your saying is all.

 

[Jean4]

I want to die but I'm scared of a propane explosion which is my method. My parents are away until next year so I'm alone and I want to die. I sometimes want my Mother to suffer because ITS ALL HER FAULT but I won't blow up her house on purpose. I just want to die.

I understand how you feel. I also know what it is like to feel alone.

But you aren't alone. You have us. And we all feel the same way as you. We are having a holiday party here. Check out the off topic section andjoin us :)

What's going on with your mom? I can tell you horror stories about mine.

 

[LookingGlassOfSorrow]

sounds complicated and dangerous to other people. have you researched other methods?

I have. N2, helium (all exit bag but too expensive) propane is CHEAP. I will try tomorrow liquified petroleum w/exit bag OUTSIDE. If unsuccessful I will be in enough pain to kick the chair from under me and hang slow.

I understand how you feel. I also know what it is like to feel alone.

But you aren't alone. You have us. And we all feel the same way as you. We are having a holiday party here. Check out the off topic section andjoin us :)

What's going on with your mom? I can tell you horror stories about mine.

I'm just a paranoid piece of shit. My Mom isn't that bad. I just want to die. Tell me about your Mom

 

[Ark]

Your feelings and fears are yours. If that is how you feel then that is how you feel. That does not make you a POS at all.

I believe you are very distressed right now and am very sorry for what you are going through. If you want to talk about it more I am very willing to listen and talk to you.

 

[Jean4]

I have. N2, helium (all exit bag but too expensive) propane is CHEAP. I will try tomorrow liquified petroleum w/exit bag OUTSIDE. If unsuccessful I will be in enough pain to kick the chair from under me and hang slow.

I'm just a paranoid piece of shit. My Mom isn't that bad. I just want to die. Tell me about your Mom

What is going on that is so bad?

 

[LookingGlassOfSorrow]

Your feelings and fears are yours. If that is how you feel then that is how you feel. That does not make you a POS at all.

I believe you are very distressed right now and am very sorry for what you are going through. If you want to talk about it more I am very willing to listen and talk to you.

I'm not willing to talk but I am willing to be put down, shunned, and ridiculed. Possibly encouraged.

What is going on that is so bad?

Too much to say and I can not articulate my emotions at the moment.

 

[Ark]

I am sorry you feel that way and will not push you. I truly hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

No one here will push you, especially if you are young and could have your entire life ahead of you full of wonderful and amazing experiences you can not even imagine right now... this forum does not encourage suicide, this is a support group. So if you do not want to share your pain and why you want to do this, nobody here can really help you.

Propane could put a lot of other people at risk. Even inside a home that is empty , a simple flip of a badly wired light switch, or hot water heater , among various other unknown factors inside your home that could cause a lot of damage, maybe even a fire.

Also if someone comes inside your home, if the propane is in high enough volume it could kill them as well.

 

[LookingGlassOfSorrow]

No one here will push you, especially if you are young and could have your entire life ahead of you full of wonderful and amazing experiences you can not even imagine right now... this forum does not encourage suicide, this is a support group. So if you do not want to share your pain and why you want to do this, nobody here can really help you.

Propane could put a lot of other people at risk. Even inside a home that is empty , a simple flip of a badly wired light switch, or hot water heater , among various other unknown factors inside your home that could cause a lot of damage, maybe even a fire.

Also if someone comes in to your home if the propane is in high enough volume it could kill them as well.

I am not the devil but I am his spawn. I did not come into this community to confess my sins and life. I'm very secretive naturally and I doubt that I will ever fully share WHY. If this community knew the evil I have done and continue to do I am sure I would get the needed hate. Regardless, I am cautious, slightly patient, and also surprised by the gravity of this site. Once again, have empathy...which you seem to have none of. GOOD DAY

Side Note : I have decided to attempt OUTSIDE

 

[APharmaDestroyedLife]

I am not the devil but I am his spawn. I did not come into this community to confess my sins and life. I'm very secretive naturally and I doubt that I will ever fully share WHY. If this community knew the evil I have done and continue to do I am sure I would get the needed hate. Regardless, I am cautious, slightly patient, and also surprised by the gravity of this site. Once again, have empathy...which you seem to have none of. GOOD DAY

Side Note : I have decided to attempt OUTSIDE

For a person to be empathetic they must first have an understanding of the persons pain. Empathy is the capacity to understand or feel what another person is experiencing from within their frame of reference, that is, the capacity to place oneself in another's position. I don't know your position. I am sorry you feel you need to end things.

If you are as you describe as evil then you would not want to die because it would mean you have no remorse or regret over your actions... You as a human being are not your worst action. We all do bad things, we all make mistakes... if you are truly evil you would not feel pain over these things, and you would happily go about your life doing them. True evil has no remorse, no regret, no guilt, but a good person that has made some mistakes does. Do not define who you are by your worst action.