Ok, so I know how crazy, childish, stupid that sounds but hear me out if you can stand it.
My suicidal urges are always because someone hurts me, I withdraw as a defense mechanism, so now there are very few people left in my life (three). I blame myself, guilt myself, all of that, and am so lonely, then I want even more to CTB. I wish I was dead.
Ok, so if I can't kms, then what if I pretend to be dead or gone. Don't call anyone, don't do anything, no point in trying to get or feel better because I'm dead. No way to fix things. Everything is just static. Can't feel the pain and loneliness because I'm dead.
There is enough food in my house to last for months if I'm not picky. No reason to go out. If any of the two people here come by, well, then I guess I will reincarnate as someone else, maybe the person I'd like to be. It's only for an hour or two.
Has anybody tried this? I'm gonna give it a shot. Dead people can't feel anything. That sounds good to me.
My suicidal urges are always because someone hurts me, I withdraw as a defense mechanism, so now there are very few people left in my life (three). I blame myself, guilt myself, all of that, and am so lonely, then I want even more to CTB. I wish I was dead.
Ok, so if I can't kms, then what if I pretend to be dead or gone. Don't call anyone, don't do anything, no point in trying to get or feel better because I'm dead. No way to fix things. Everything is just static. Can't feel the pain and loneliness because I'm dead.
There is enough food in my house to last for months if I'm not picky. No reason to go out. If any of the two people here come by, well, then I guess I will reincarnate as someone else, maybe the person I'd like to be. It's only for an hour or two.
Has anybody tried this? I'm gonna give it a shot. Dead people can't feel anything. That sounds good to me.
