Pressure is building..

[Mr. Incapable]

I just found out I'm likely going to be in a situation that'll leave me homeless in a few weeks / months. I can't go through that.. I can't struggle like that and live through homeless shelters and desperately trying to seek help as I've got no one else to ask.. I would never ask for help anyway as I don't want to become a burden on anyone. I can't get better.. I've tried. I can't escape the sadness and depression that limits me from living a 'normal' life. I can't even support myself anymore. I so badly want to die and news like this really puts on a pressure that I have to confront my fear and just commit to my attempt and succeed.. why does it have to be so hard..

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it is horrifying that homelessness is even a thing in the first place. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you, it is such a cruel and unfair life, and I can imagine that it must be really awful being in that situation. It is sad how so much suffering exists in the world. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[danausplexi]

I'm sorry you're going through this. You sound so afraid. I wish I could give you a hug.

 

[CoalmineCanary]

I'm sorry that life dealt you such a difficult and cruel hand but you are not a burden here! Please remember that!

 

[Mr. Incapable]

I'm sorry you're going through this. You sound so afraid. I wish I could give you a hug.

Honestly, I'm on the edge of tears right now but I'm trying to hold it back. I guess the reality is really hitting in that I'm out of luck and out of options. I'm usually quite numb to physical emotions like crying so it takes a lot to get me to this point. I'm thinking about the last things I want to say to my sister in my suicide note and it really hurts and upsets me that I really have to say goodbye. I really wish it didn't have to be this way but.. that's life, I guess..? I keep trying to remind myself that I'm not the first, and I sure won't be the last when it comes to suicide.. it just sucks that we have to live and die this way. I feel so sorry for us.

 

[Slimetae]

I'm about to be homeless as well have no money saved up or anything . My aunt has an eviction date in a week or so . So I gotta figure something out or be on the streets . I could go to hotel with my moms and my siblings but I'm not trying to be a burden either . Shit sucks but I hope u figure it out

 

[CoalmineCanary]

I feel terrible for us too. I hope the site gives you some relief where you can talk to some folks. It's okay to cry. You can cry on my (virtual) shoulder if it helps. It's not a burden. Wish I could do more than just offer words.

 

[london3]

I just found out I'm likely going to be in a situation that'll leave me homeless in a few weeks / months. I can't go through that.. I can't struggle like that and live through homeless shelters and desperately trying to seek help as I've got no one else to ask.. I would never ask for help anyway as I don't want to become a burden on anyone. I can't get better.. I've tried. I can't escape the sadness and depression that limits me from living a 'normal' life. I can't even support myself anymore. I so badly want to die and news like this really puts on a pressure that I have to confront my fear and just commit to my attempt and succeed.. why does it have to be so hard..

Really sorry about the stress you are going through about homelessness, i hope you find something soon. It is really good to vent and let out your feelings and not to keep stuff bottled up.

I would just say that if you end up in a shelter know that it is only temporary and keep telling yourself that in your own mind that it will soon be over.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Sorry bro, I'm in the system myself. It's all just fucking brutal.

 

[Mr. Incapable]

I'm about to be homeless as well have no money saved up or anything . My aunt has an eviction date in a week or so . So I gotta figure something out or be on the streets . I could go to hotel with my moms and my siblings but I'm not trying to be a burden either . Shit sucks but I hope u figure it out

Really sorry to hear you're in a similar situation.. homelessness is something I've never had to face before and the realisation that it will soon become a reality if I continue to live is just terrifying. I don't know how people do it.. I can't sleep on the street or live from shelter to shelter without the safety and security of having my own space. At that point I'll feel like I've lost absolutely everything.. not that I had much to begin with anyway. Life is so hard..

Really sorry about the stress you are going through about homelessness, i hope you find something soon. It is really good to vent and let out your feelings and not to keep stuff bottled up.

I would just say that if you end up in a shelter know that it is only temporary and keep telling yourself that in your own mind that it will soon be over.

I appreciate the words, but there's no way I can live through that.. having nothing, not even a home and still finding the power to wake up in the morning and fight through life struggling to survive.. I can't do it. I really don't know how people do it. I lost my will to live a long time ago and it seems better to end my life before I have to endure any of that..

Sorry bro, I'm in the system myself. It's all just fucking brutal.

I can't imagine it.. but I believe it. I'm so sorry if my post made you feel any worse about your current situation. We all have our limits of what we can and can't endure and homelessness and living through the system is just something I absolutely won't be able to do.. I'm not strong enough to experience that.. so now the pressure to end my life is greater than ever at this point. I just don't know how much time I have left to do it.. and it's better to do it while I still have the privacy to succeed because if I become homeless I lose pretty much all privacy and the risks of being found are higher.. fuck, I hate this so much.