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heyismeman

Experienced
Jan 29, 2025
299
I don't care if it is or isn't painful, I'm willing to suffer the worst pain of my life for 1 minute if I know when I want to, I can exit quickly and guaranteed. Would be such a peace of mind knowing I had it around. But I can't source it for the life of me and don't have the room to make it
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,093
I understand, I also wish for a guaranteed way to be permanently free from the suffering of existing, it'd bring me so much peace as well to have the option to just simply cease existing, I personally just want to never exist ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.
 
roommate

roommate

Trying to drag myself out of the garbage
Feb 14, 2025
435
Cyanide sounds like a nightmare tbh, hard to get and the worst pain ever, not a way I want to go.
 
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lostintheloop

Enlightened
Apr 14, 2023
1,259
Yeah I wish I could source it . I deserve the pain and even if the pain makes me want to chicken out then likely no one would be able to 'save' me in time.
 
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roommate

roommate

Trying to drag myself out of the garbage
Feb 14, 2025
435
U changing from team fent to team cyanide?
 
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curiouscvnt

curiouscvnt

Member
Nov 20, 2024
62
a few minutes of agony for just about certain death, with <2 g of material? Oh hell yes; i agree. In fact if i end up using KCN, i want people to know that i was willing to go thru with the physical pain. For the same reason i have thought of slitting my hips/thighs and throat. It shows deliberacy; i want no mistaking that if i take my own life.
It is a project to get cyanide salts, though. It helps to be involved or associated w industries that use it.

i don't necessarily think i or anyone else deserves excruciating, blinding pain, though i do have a sense of worthlessness that contributes to my suicidality.
 
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purelydaft

Member
Apr 5, 2024
42
Full suspension is practically guaranteed and in all likelihood also quick. Why not get a rope and scout an anchor point if peace of mind is what you're after?
 
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heyismeman

Experienced
Jan 29, 2025
299
Full suspension is practically guaranteed and in all likelihood also quick. Why not get a rope and scout an anchor point if peace of mind is what you're after?
Because once the pill goes in your mouth which is an easy motion to do it's over. Hanging has a huge margin of si that I don't see with cyanide
U changing from team fent to team cyanide?
I can source is what i meant to say
 

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