posting from the psych ward

[geepeedee]

originally planned on CTBing on the 15th, my birthday, but my partner snitched and now i'm still alive, in grippy socks jail. lord knows if i'll ever get out. they want to give me ECT for my 'treatment resistant refractory depression', which is how psychiatrists say psychiatry is a scam and my 'depression' is caused by my material circumstances, not my brain chemistry.

don't have much to say other than hi sasu!

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

Hi! You're description of treatment resistant depression had me laughing. Godspeed.

 

[BradGuy123]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope your stay there is short.

 

[telekon]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope your stay there is short.

well shit it's already been two weeks.

originally planned on CTBing on the 15th, my birthday, but my partner snitched and now i'm still alive, in grippy socks jail. lord knows if i'll ever get out. they want to give me ECT for my 'treatment resistant refractory depression', which is how psychiatrists say psychiatry is a scam and my 'depression' is caused by my material circumstances, not my brain chemistry.

don't have much to say other than hi sasu!

you should tell them you are feeling a lot better now and have zero suicidal ideation. you should get off of this website in case they check your phone. start acting happier and get yourself out of there. you can do this

 

[geepeedee]

it has been a very long two weeks, and being in here makes me want to CTB more so i'm not sure if i'll ever get out at this rate.

 

[meowalyst]

it has been a very long two weeks, and being in here makes me want to CTB more so i'm not sure if i'll ever get out at this rate.

you honestly just have to fake it till you make it. i got out the psych ward by acting perfect and saying it was just an impulsive thought and listed off random stuff that i was grateful for and that i wanted to stay. performed a false smile and once my hold was up i was able to go

 

[fadedghost]

originally planned on CTBing on the 15th, my birthday, but my partner snitched and now i'm still alive, in grippy socks jail. lord knows if i'll ever get out. they want to give me ECT for my 'treatment resistant refractory depression', which is how psychiatrists say psychiatry is a scam and my 'depression' is caused by my material circumstances, not my brain chemistry.

don't have much to say other than hi sasu!

omg, please be careful with ect, for so many people, it leaves them with permanent memory deficits.

survival instinct is hard to overcome, many people who want to commit suicide end up living a long time or failing attempts

ect is forever

sometimes when people are in involuntary commitment, they pressure them to do ect: we won't let you out until you start ect here.

don't do it!

or at least look up all the horrible memory problems people get! doctors lie and say it's usually temporary but if you check online, a lot of people say it's not. It does not seem to be a small percent to me, I don't have data, but it's a lot of people who have memory issues after ECT, a lot. just please check online about ect and don't take their word on memory and ect. they lie, they lie just like they did about lobotomies, they are liars.

 

[geepeedee]

omg, please be careful with ect, for so many people, it leaves them with permanent memory deficits.

survival instinct is hard to overcome, many people who want to commit suicide end up living a long time or failing attempts

ect is forever

sometimes when people are in involuntary commitment, they pressure them to do ect: we won't let you out until you start ect here.

don't do it!

or at least look up all the horrible memory problems people get! doctors lie and say it's usually temporary but if you check online, a lot of people say it's not. It does not seem to be a small percent to me, I don't have data, but it's a lot of people who have memory issues after ECT, a lot. just please check online about ect and don't take their word on memory and ect. they lie, they lie just like they did about lobotomies, they are liars.

was wondering if sasu had anything to say about ECT; thanks for letting me know. i was already pretty certain it wasn't going to do anything for me, they're just running out of meds and don't have anything else to throw at the wall.

 

[Fadenself00_]

was wondering if sasu had anything to say about ECT; thanks for letting me know. i was already pretty certain it wasn't going to do anything for me, they're just running out of meds and don't have anything else to throw at the wall.

can you get a lawyer and get out of there?

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I hear you. I am also depressed because of my shitty circumstances. It's hard to explain to people that a pill won't fix that.

 

[geepeedee]

can you get a lawyer and get out of there?

nope, can't afford one.

 

[diviosd]

hoping your release from hell is imminent... this is why i never tell people when i plan to ctb, i know your partner wanted to keep you safe but I'd be so beyond pissed with them...

Hi! You're description of treatment resistant depression had me laughing. Godspeed.

had me laughing as well

 

[fadedghost]

was wondering if sasu had anything to say about ECT; thanks for letting me know. i was already pretty certain it wasn't going to do anything for me, they're just running out of meds and don't have anything else to throw at the wall.

if they are running out of meds and you've tried ketamine and all the treatment resistant stuff, you could try it, just go into it knowing some people do have long term memory damage, like check online and read real accounts of people who have experienced it and had bad reactions

have you had horrible trauma in life and not done trauma therapy? i am sorry to be so direct, but sometimes extreme trauma and not talking about it can impact things...

 

[geepeedee]

if they are running out of meds and you've tried ketamine and all the treatment resistant stuff, you could try it, just go into it knowing some people do have long term memory damage, like check online and read real accounts of people who have experienced it and had bad reactions

have you had horrible trauma in life and not done trauma therapy? i am sorry to be so direct, but sometimes extreme trauma and not talking about it can impact things...

i dunno about extreme trauma, but i lost my career and am spiralling into homelessness. nothing they can do in here can change that, and i really don't wanna experience homelessness.

they're pushing ECT cuz it's free, and ketamine and TMS are gated by being prohibitively expensive. i dun wanna yet remain suicidal, so i'm stuck. they're fucking with my meds instead; ama about being a human guinea pig.

 

[fadedghost]

i dunno about extreme trauma, but i lost my career and am spiralling into homelessness. nothing they can do in here can change that, and i really don't wanna experience homelessness.

they're pushing ECT cuz it's free, and ketamine and TMS are gated by being prohibitively expensive. i dun wanna yet remain suicidal, so i'm stuck. they're fucking with my meds instead; ama about being a human guinea pig.

i'm so sorry. that's awful, and there's no medication to change that. do you have enough to buy a vehicle and live in a vehicle and get a gym membership and just apply for jobs at a library?

that's terrible. :-( i'm sorry the world is so awful.

 

[Live_Life55]

Lucky you get to keep your phone in the psych ward

 

[geepeedee]

Lucky you get to keep your phone in the psych ward

i actually don't - i only get an hour of phone time each day. posting from the ward computers.

 

[Live_Life55]

i actually don't - i only get an hour of phone time each day. posting from the ward computers.

Brutal. A ward is worse than death.

 

[Aflame5926]

fuck man. big hugs in there man.
i hope you get free soon

 

[RadiantNumber]

originally planned on CTBing on the 15th, my birthday, but my partner snitched and now i'm still alive, in grippy socks jail. lord knows if i'll ever get out. they want to give me ECT for my 'treatment resistant refractory depression', which is how psychiatrists say psychiatry is a scam and my 'depression' is caused by my material circumstances, not my brain chemistry.

don't have much to say other than hi sasu!

I'm very sorry for You, ECT is not "therapy" it's torture

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