Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[ultradespair]

Stopped my first attempt at therapy because of not wanting to take meds/get into the cycle of taking a lot of different medication and suffering of all the side effects, also agoraphobia

 

[Foxcompany2nd3rd]

I went to a mental health 'professional' once, never went back or again. All they can do for you is listen, diagnose, and drug you. Beyond that they cannot mend a broken spirit. They treat you like a number, its just another day another patient to them.

I realized that after many years the only person that can help yourself is you, and if you fail you will CTB anyways.

 

[Takeme2whereibelong]

Yes have for previous attempts and now currently. On a very rare occasion ill find someone i click with who isnt offended by blatant honesty with the way i talk if i let my mask slip, (i am autistic so tend to lose my filter often when speaking). The rest i find difficult to engage with because they just dont get what we get. Even today in my suicide prevention session i was lectured about how i need to think of her if i did something how it would affect her because she'd then dwell on could've done or said something better to help. Im extremely passionate about people having the right to choose as long as there mentaly capable of deciding and not an adolescent unless in extreme circumstances for the latter (my personal opinion) and i think her comment is incredibly unfair.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Dine therapy many times im heavily medicated and im struggling to pick up the phone ... i have to make a call at some point i have the number sat there .. its to call the hospice to make sure my care is all in order with pallativ team.. due to my personal choices ..as i do not want the transplant that is coming soon.. its sound odd i know to refuse it but due to my other issues that is going to put me in a wheelchair and require people to wipe my arse and bath me ..cut up my food as my hands are fucked from osteoporsis and (thus already going on) i nearly dropped a boiling kettle on my feet the other day as my hand could nit hold it.. i can know longer play the piano my true passion due to all this shit so why would i want tonlive longer when i cant actually live ....

 

[voyager_9999]

i've been going to therapy for about a year and a half and this whole time i havent ever mentioned a desire to ctb, the last thing i need right now is to be sent away or have my family find out, a total waste of money and time, i dont know why im doing this to myself.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

It feels so hopeless seeing most of us got help but we're still suffering.

 

[Thelonginglyracist]

I've been receiving therapy. I've been receiving medication. I've been in the hospital. I've been out of the hospital. I've had good days. I've had bad days

But overall after years of journaling because I took years to make this decision

I just don't like life

If this were a movie, a game, a book or form and it sucked this bad and I put the book down, turned the movie off, turn the game off and uninstalled and no one would look down at me

And yet I'm being potentially judged for this

I have no interest in this. I'm not sad. I'm not angry. I'm not even numb. I'm profoundly disappointed and exhausted and bored

And this world doesn't care how much effort you put in? How much work you do? How good you are. If you've taken the right path the wrong path taking the high road or being sneaky, it doesn't care. Nobody cares really

And that's okay. People need to care about themselves. I get that

I just want no part of it

I'm looking for an exit strategy that is not going to be inconvenient to others and just gets the job done

I'm not doing this spontaneously I'm really quite comical about it. The fact that I'm planning slowly so that everything is done right shows that and this is just what I want and need. I've done it everyone else's way. I've taken all the advice and I've done my best for my entire life and I made this decision a year ago, maybe longer. I only just started documenting how I was feeling consistently for a year just to see if they were like mood swings but even when I'm "happy" I'm just thinking about how I would like to log out now when it feels nice. I have never wanted to stay

 

[SchizoGymnast]

My mental health treatment consists of:

• Medication, namely lithium, an SSRI, and a second-generation antipsychotic
• CBT for symptoms and life stuff, ERP for OCD symptoms, and ACT for identity and relationships
• Physical activity regimen, namely gymnastics (shocker)
• Blood sugar and migraine management
• Spiritual practice

This isn't a specific treatment per se, but whenever I enter a therapeutic endeavor, I view it through the lens of generational and historical trauma. I believe those two things are a h-u-g-e-l-y overlooked part of why people just seem to be "born" unhappy and anxious or alone in the world.

 

[Bleh61]

I've been receiving therapy off and on since 2007. It doesn't matter how good your therapist may be. How can anyone survive if the only piece of stability in their life(their home) is taken from them? I'm a stones throw away from being homeless. I'd rather OD or take a header off my 6th story fire escape then lose my home.