I've been under mh services for the best part of a decade now and, numerous times, have had short courses of therapy which have provided slight relief in the moment, although this has never been sustained post-treatment. I've now been accepted onto a longer term MBT (mentalisation-based therapy) course for my BPD, which I've heard has been really helpful for other people, so I am hopeful but this is a last resort for me. I do not wish to spend the rest of my life in and out of treatment, taking medication several times per day, and if I'm no better after completing this therapy then I believe I was not meant to be.