godforbidpain
dead genderless thing
- Aug 31, 2024
- 23
okay. im starting to settle on february, before the month ends at the very least. i've got two methods i will combine. i'm starting to think of which specific people to leave last messages, the social medias i use don't have delayed direct messages so i *will* have to send those messages before i go.
i've also made a plan to write a small will (i don't have valuable belongings anyways, just sentimental stuff), write some last diary entries, and i want to call 911 *right* before CTB just so they find me instead of some random poor untrained civilian. i don't want to traumatize anyone, but someone has to find me eventually.
i feel a weird sense of both numbness and excitement. anxious, also.
i've also made a plan to write a small will (i don't have valuable belongings anyways, just sentimental stuff), write some last diary entries, and i want to call 911 *right* before CTB just so they find me instead of some random poor untrained civilian. i don't want to traumatize anyone, but someone has to find me eventually.
i feel a weird sense of both numbness and excitement. anxious, also.
