Discussion Plans for Final Day/Days?

[absolute_n0thing]

Do you guys have a sort of plan for how you'd like to spend your final day/days? I'd probably plan a whole final week out for myself.

First 3 days to meet with friends and my siblings one final time to hangout. Nothing crazy, there are just some people I'd like to see once more before I go, maybe give gifts if I can get away with it without being suspicious.

Then on the 4th day, I want to go absolutely crazy. I'll wear my nicest outfit, go clubbing, dancing, smoking weed, drinking all night, just one final all-outer. I haven't partied in months since I've been so depressed, but since it'll be my last, I'm actually excited for going out for the first time in a while, which is nice...

5th day I'll rest and be a total slob, eat all my favourite junk foods and binge watch some pre-selected films or shows, get high...

6th day I'll wander. I've always liked just going to new places and walking around exploring. It'll be a peaceful time for me to be alone and really reflect if this is my absolute final decision, while I look at pretty views.

7th day, aka THE day, I'll make sure I have all my things in order one last time, spend the day relaxing by watching my all time favourite movie, eating a whole ass lemon meringue pie (it's my ultimate favourite food) all to myself, getting high as I physically can, and playing my favourite games. When I'm ready, I'll change into my chosen, comfortable last outfit, pop on my curated playlist and settle myself in my set up area (I plan on using the Exit Bag method).

I still need to fine tune the details of course, like actually making the playlist and picking out snack foods and blah blah blah, but this is my general guidelines of how I'd like to spend my last days.

 

[gothbird]

Yeah, I've thought about it. I'd probably stretch it out over a few days. Watch my favourite films. Listen to all my playlists a thousand times. Call my dad. Just to hear his voice.

Day of, I'd sleep in. Clean the room. One last long, hot shower. Make sure everything's prepped, notes where they need to be, scheduled texts locked in. Then headphones on, and I'd go out into the stars to the greatest playlist I've ever made.

Your final days sound wonderful. I do hope, if you get there, they'll be the best days you've had.

 

[Namelesa]

If I did have a planned day to ctb (cus I mostly do it on impulsive emotions), I personally won't plan much as I feel like that could get in the way of being able to die. The most I would do is play a game like Rain World as that game's main ending you get is literally you ending all of your suffering by getting final death, which is what I want too with suicide.

 

[Dqope]

I will go the same way I came. On a beautiful day but it wont be anything special. Just a normal day. Thats how I dont overthing my final day. Thinking about everything objectively and thats it. In the grand scheme od things I dont think it matters if you go out and party or just sit in a room. Why do that? To prove something or to show off in some typa way? I never understood that... But di what you feel makes you happy.

 

[HumanoidMonster]

My plan, assuming I'd ever get access to a surefire method that I am 100% certain would work, would be to first make sure everything is in order, then write a long note that would be scheduled to be sent to my parents/friends/whoever after a couple of days addressing stuff like why I did it and what pushed me to do it, tying up loose ends, and stuff like giving permission to my close ones (family or close friends) to manage my earthly possessions as they wish. I would definitely ask, in case of a funeral, not to have it be religious (I am an atheist living in a Christian family). Sadly though, as of right now, there seem to be way too many variables at play, mostly the margin of error. In that case I'd just go for the "unexplained quick exit", basically just going through with it without providing explanations or notes, since, in the case I fail, I wouldn't want to have to live through the consequences of waving everyone goodbye only not to leave afterwards.

 

[ginko0]

Would probably do a little ritual of smoking cigarettes with music playing, watching the stars one last time and writing my final words

 

[usernamesarehard]

I really like your plan. My original plan was to give myself a month. I'd ctb on the last day of November.
My plan was/is:
go to abnb (I plan to pay for it sometime this year so I don't have to pay as much as I would if I booked, lets say the month before)
Cook food (I plan to have a list of 30 breakfast, lunch and dinner meals. I want to cook during my last days)
Read book (I want to reread some books that I really like)
Maybe videogames?
Maybe explore and try to talk to people since I'll be in a completely different state and going to ctb, so who cares if I embarrass myself?

But yeah, read, cook, relax, enjoy one month of true freedom.
I actually planned on cutting pretty much everyone off starting the 1st. I wouldn't answer any calls, I actually plan on mass blocking almost everyone in my contacts, so I wouldn't get calls. The only people I wouldn't block would be my ex and one of my uncles, maybe 2. I think it would be nice to get one last day with everyone. My family's pretty spread out, some live in the north and some live in the south, but I could spend a few days of my month visiting them.

I don't really think I want to though. I want to just cut everyone off to try to make it a little easier when I go.

Alright I thought some more and some things I would add are watch Ice Age (it's my favorite movie) and listen to send me on my way on loop. I love that song and I guess it's also weirdly fitting.

 

[Ligottian]

Make sure I will have a day of not being disturbed.
Crush my stash of benzos into water and then down the hatch.
Head shot with my .357 Magnum.

Think it will work?

 

[dearlydeparted44]

I'm just enjoying what's left to enjoy, and prepping for the moment. Watching current events relieved that I won't grow old in such a messed up, mean hellscape that they keep trying to convince me is 'precious.' I'm actually staying off of SaSu more, because I don't want doubt to cloud my mind and I don't want to go down meaningless rabbit holes about methods and fears that'll just paralyze me and keep me here.

Make sure I will have a day of not being disturbed.
Crush my stash of benzos into water and then down the hatch.
Head shot with my .357 Magnum.

Think it will work?

You'll be fine with a .357.

 

[Zyntkalla]

I don't really have a plan yet for my final days. But I am planning to get rid of most of my stuff. Some stuff I'll give to friends and most of it I will try to donate it. If all my stuff can be donated? My main reason why I want to donate my stuff is I don't really trust my parents to do it and I wouldn'twantmy stuffto go in the garbage.. I will definitely wear some nice stuff for my last day. And going to try to use up most or all of my food. Because I live alone. The only thing i'm worried about is I have some very important things that i'm hopefully can give to people that will take care of it just as well as I did. Planning to leave some clothes just in case I survive. I am planning to leave a box for the leftover stuff. Hopefully my parents will do it. Going to leave a note for a friend at work. Planning to explain my reasons for wanting to go to her. Because I want someone to know all my reasons for why I left. And planning to leave a note for my doctor so she knows also. And both notes are going to be timed for week or two after I am gone. So I can have time to stop it If I need to. I probably won't really leave anything for my parents. Just a note for the stuff I want to get rid of whatI have left. And maybe a small note. And I will try to hide the note. So doesn't get found too early. I am planning to leave in a year and six months. Planning to go after june twenty six some time. I just want to go definitely after my birthday that is that day. The only thing that's keeping me here is a few things I want to get done.

The funny part is it felt like I was going to end up this way from a very young age. For now, i've never felt happier about this decision. So I am only going to miss some of the things that I love and, some of the things that I'm going to have to leave behind. And I hope I can take some of the memories like hobbies,habits,memories that I can take with me in the next life if there is such thing as reincarnation? That is the only hope I have at this point. And the same issues are coming back. I'd love to say, I was f***** from the beginning, and i'm f***** now. And I wasn't born in the right time to fix my issues. That is why the direction I am going is the only option.

 

[beandigger404]

When I'm done making final plans and dates for an attempt, I make a list of things I want to do before I go. Small things, like read a book I've always wanted to read or do something silly and fun with a friend. I start with replaying video games that I used to love, rewatch shows that I used to be hyperfixated on, go through old photos, etc. The final week is always the hardest and most sentimental for me. That's when I hang out with friends for the last time and come to terms with being gone. A lot of reflecting. I make sure to make everyday count in some way.

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

smoking ciggaretes, listening to music and setting up the room in some "artistic" way so people can remember more than my dead body

 

[secretghost]

M only big plans are to say 'yes' to opportunities that arise that sound good but not to stress too hard about the rest. I honestly don't mind if I don't do anything special again tbh even though I am trying to enjoy as much as possible until then!!! The only major thing that has changed is not force feeding myself when it makes me feel ill because I'm not worried about my health in the long term, and I'm not forcing myself to sleep during the 'correct' hours. I sleep late or stay up late if I want :-)

 

[outrider567]

it will be impulsive, so little planning involved

 

[starboy2k]

probably just lay in bed and doom scroll, might attempt to cry for the last time because its finally the end, stare at the wall like Ive been doing, then drink those cups of good ole SN

 

[goatmonster :3]

I wanna get my guitar and mp3 player, speaker, and discman into the hands of my brother right before i do it. those things gotta get cherished after i'm gone. my major plan for the day i ctb is to leave my mom a voicemail letting her know how horribly she failed as a parent, and that i'll never forgive her.

 

[jazzcat621]

Ive got probably a nice month long list. See a few friends one final time, go to one last convention, travel the country to visit long distance friends, maybe meet a partner for CTB. My last few days will probably just be playing games, getting high, spending money without a care.

 

[haveyourownway]

I'm gonna spend the last 3 days (it has to be 3) just visiting as many people as possible, buying their food and shopping runs, helping out ect. Watching my favourite movies.. Wiping and destroying all electronics and deleting every account I can find. Cleaning up my house and making sure everything looks neat. Cutting the grass and maintaining the garden and flowers to look nice. Finding all of my childhood photos and reminiscing on my life and any memory I remember. Crying like a schoolgirl and blasting my favourite music before just doing it. Honestly just want to spend it making sure people remember me well and trying to change my mind

 

[xx22xz]

I've been thinking about traveling to the interior of my country. There are many places and things I'll miss, but I'm already feeling pretty exhausted and just want to get away.

 

[laceydreams]

just having nomral day

 

[iichi]

it will be my birthday. i don't have any solid plans yet, but i do want to spend some time with loved ones. i want to have a nice meal. i want to be kind to myself. maybe watch a movie with my partner, play some games with my friends. i hope it will be a peaceful day.

 

[NitroussBlue]

I'd like to keep it simple.

Go to a Hotel with a nice climatized pool, order good sushi for dinner, spend the afternoon basking in hot water or something relaxing and then go back to my room to ctb at night.

I'll try to write letters for loved ones, try leave written what is left to be said

 

[seekingpeace88]

I'm gonna spend the last 3 days (it has to be 3) just visiting as many people as possible, buying their food and shopping runs, helping out ect. Watching my favourite movies.. Wiping and destroying all electronics and deleting every account I can find. Cleaning up my house and making sure everything looks neat. Cutting the grass and maintaining the garden and flowers to look nice. Finding all of my childhood photos and reminiscing on my life and any memory I remember. Crying like a schoolgirl and blasting my favourite music before just doing it. Honestly just want to spend it making sure people remember me well and trying to change my mind

You sounds like such a genuinely kind person I'm so sorry for your pain

 

[Forveleth]

I have found that setting a date and forcing yourself into a schedule only increases anticipation, anxiety, and SI. I therefore do not plan on having any specific date. Therefore, I can not have a final day or days to plan out. I will simply wake up in the morning and know that that day is my last. In that case, I will just go about my day as normal until I feel ready.