Planning to CTB soon

[EndofEternity]

My life's been going to shit for years, and I've exhausted all other options. I'm dealing with combination AvPD/BPD, as well as visual and auditory hallucinations, and nothing I've tried has ever helped. In fact, it's been getting worse for years now. Everyone I love always ends up getting tired of dealing with me, and ends up leaving. I tried to end it recently, but made the mistake of telling someone about it, and they called the cops. Won't be making that mistake again. As soon as I can get my hands on SN, it's over. Anyways, sorry for rambling. I've got a lot on my mind, and don't really know how to write it all down.

 

[sadnessnsuicide]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I relate a lot and I am also thinking of using SN to ctb.

Everyone I love always ends up getting tired of dealing with me, and ends up leaving.

This is a very relatable sentiment. I don't have anyone really close to me that has stuck around for a very long time. Everyone ends up having to leave for one reason or another. I'm so tired of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I know that it is dreadful when things just get worse. I can imagine that it must be unbearable what you are going through. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[EndofEternity]

This is a very relatable sentiment. I don't have anyone really close to me that has stuck around for a very long time. Everyone ends up having to leave for one reason or another. I'm so tired of it.

It really is agonizing. I've watched so many people give up on me. Even worse, they all promise they'll never leave. And then they do. It's an endless cycle, and I'm tired of it.