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[mossyfox]

I found my material. Funny it was something I bought to make me more comfortable at work. I know the place. There's practice to do and arrangements to make but I feel better having decided my method and place and having materials ready.

I don't think I can hold out much longer. I think getting over the 20 year mark has just been too long. People are released from prison after 20 year sentences. I want my release.

I'm so tired.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm really tired of life too. I understand why you would feel better having materials ready, as now you have a way out when you cannot take anymore. I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[mossyfox]

I hope so too. I just can't contribute to this world and function normally and I don't want to just live off of disability for the rest of my life like most people with my condition.

 

[mossyfox]

I was fired today.

 

[Lady black]

Sorry for losing your job, wish you would have more luck

 

[StevieNixs]

I was fired today.

I'm, so very sorry. At my sister's funeral in my opening tribute I said "When troubles come, they come not single spies but in battalions" and this is what always so unfairly happens to people who are already struggling. This happens and the people behind these decisions, do not know the inner turmoil people like you are going through when they make these arbitrary or purposeful decisions. It's so cruel. I am so sorry. x

 

[mossyfox]

I'm, so very sorry. At my sister's funeral in my opening tribute I said "When troubles come, they come not single spies but in battalions" and this is what always so unfairly happens to people who are already struggling. This happens and the people behind these decisions, do not know the inner turmoil people like you are going through when they make these arbitrary or purposeful decisions. It's so cruel. I am so sorry. x

actually they did know. see my post about regretting telling my bosses that I have depression, etc.

I'm struggling with checking into a hospital, staying home, ctb. all bad options. I have kids, shared custody. I can't make a decision

 

[StevieNixs]

actually they did know. see my post about regretting telling my bosses that I have depression, etc.

I'm struggling with checking into a hospital, staying home, ctb. all bad options. I have kids, shared custody. I can't make a decision,

This is awful and discriminatory. You cannot be sacked for depression at least not in my country. Well you can be - but they can be taken to court for doing so. That is an employment law case.

 

[mossyfox]

They have low billable hours to point to that that's why they fired me. I don't have proof of anything.

 

[StevieNixs]

They have low billable hours to point to that that's why they fired me. I don't have proof of anything.

Do you have free law centres in your country that you could at least receive free advice from or you could contact a civil liberties organisation.

Disability Rights | American Civil Liberties Union

Striving for an America free of discrimination against people with disabilities, where they are valued, integrated members of society with full access to education, homes, health care, jobs, voting, and beyond.

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Billable hours has nothing to do with it. Billable hours was the excuse used but the real reason was your mental health issues. A court would see through this. The same way in which someone is sacked for disclosing they are gay or on maternity leave or Black or whatever and companies try to use the excuse that they had a poor work ethic, did not get on with colleagues, and all of the other excuses which are used because they are not allowed to legally discriminate. What reason did they give for firing you?

 

[mossyfox]

Just that they decided it is best to end the professional relationship. They know there could be a problem. I mean to say I have no proof that I informed them of my mental health issues.

 

[StevieNixs]

Just that they decided it is best to end the professional relationship. They know there could be a problem. I mean to say I have no proof that I informed them of my mental health issues

Contact the ACLU and see what they say - if you are based in the USA. If you have proof you were ill - hospitals, doctors, etc. then a court or tribunal in my country will deduce through common sense and logic the likelihood you would have told them about this and that your employment ended shortly thereafter. Consider how people are bullied in work situations and there is often no proof. In fact there is rarely proof in discrimination cases because again employers never come out and say "We are firing you because you are disable, transgender, gay, have mental health issues, are Hispanic, Black, Muslim etc"

 

[mossyfox]

I had such a small moment of sanity today to ask my husband to pick me up from work and he works not far from where I worked. I already had my method ready and if not for that, I would have driven myself off to hang. The rejection is so unbearable. I have nothing to offer in this world but to possibly offer some use as a worker and provide money to my kids. I am unable to keep a job.

My husband did not take me to a hospital like I asked. I am worried about the aftermath of dealing with that after reading people's stories here and losing custody of my kids. Not for me, but because my kids will lose their stepdad. If I ctb, they will lose their stepdad and stability and chance at mental wellbeing.

I will be left alone at home tomorrow. I still have my method. I don't know how I will feel when I wake up. Better? Much worse? Tomorrow might be my last day. I'm so sorry for my kids. I wish they could have their stepdad even when I am gone.

I find it a little ironic that the one boss I did admit I was suicidal to and who is not a partner, he was the one to pack up my desk for my husband after I was taken home. That boss packed my method neatly into the box for me.

Contact the ACLU and see what they say - if you are based in the USA. If you have proof you were ill - hospitals, doctors, etc. then a court or tribunal in my country will deduce through common sense and logic the likelihood you would have told them about this and that your employment ended shortly thereafter. Consider how people are bullied in work situations and there is often no proof. In fact there is rarely proof in discrimination cases because again employers never come out and say "We are firing you because you are disable, transgender, gay, have mental health issues, are Hispanic, Black, Muslim etc"

I have no interest. Everyone is saying apply for jobs. I have no interest in this either. I'm unable to work jobs as history shows. I'm unable to build relationships, unable to get along with people. I'm entirely useless. people don't want me around and I can't blame them. I don't want me around. I don't want to be around. once I am gone I will stop caring about kids and custody. it won't matter. In hundred yrs it won't matter anyway. nothing matters.

just like when you leave a job all of your clients, cases, become meaningless. you stop thinking of them. I have to let go of worrying about people after I die.