Venting People are the same

[Saponification]

People are fundamentally the same conscious phenomenon but in different vessels. Once you acknowledge this you start seeing it everywhere. Rehashes of the same personality. We're all the same just under different circumstances. It's an obvious thought but when I started to think about it like this it became depressing as shit.

Furthermore, most people are severely lacking in self-awareness. People are like a closed little system that projects their worldview and past ego bruises onto others. It makes me think about how meaningless it is to chase shit such as validation and love from others. It's hard to not be extremely detached from others and reality after realizing this.

I always kept going because of the knawing thought that maybe I was just an edgy little bitch with a big ego and that I just needed to socialize more. But as I mature my worldview got even more nihilistic still. I could never in a million years imagine a reality more lame and depressing as whatever the fuck this is. Fuck just let me get over my fucking ego and survival instinct so I can self-annihilate already.

 

[dragonofenvy]

Once you acknowledge this you start seeing it everywhere. Rehashes of the same personality. We're all the same just under different circumstances.

I've been told that I'm special, both in good ways and bad ways. I guess I'm special for having been in special education for the first half of my life. I guess I'm special because I was a gifted student in the latter half of my life. Something I have noticed, however, is that everyone is special. I found it to be odd.

All of the SPED kids were the same. All the gifted kids too. Each person behaves accordingly to the group they're in.

If everyone is special, nobody is.

 

[Maki9]

I relate a lot, I feel like my self-awareness has come to a point where I shut down every thought as I immediately start to consider a million different perspectives while invalidating my own view of seeing life.

It appears to be an extreme. You have already mentioned the other pole: The total lack of self-awareness which too pisses me off. But which one is preferable as in, what's more practical? Do I want my thoughts to eat me alive or am I satisfied with just enough thoughts and cognitive processes to keep me alive?

Not to sound like a lil boomer but I feel like with social media and short form content, society was somewhat conditioned to react to a specific input (circumstance) with a specific output (opinion or even precise things to say)

It feels like society has therefore merged into a blurry, universal way of being. A shell devoid of will

Good night everybody

 

[CTB Dream]

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[CTB Dream]

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