Venting Partial hanging testing

[thefirstluminary]

HELLOOO! This is me again. As you can read in the title, I was testing out blocking my artery to see if I could pass out, and it worked so well yesterday that I felt so much joy and happiness out of nowhere. I have never in my life felt this happy before, I was laughing like a mad person. I also tried it one more time before going to sleep, but this time my vision started blacking out very quickly and I stopped there. And I got even happier, to the point I couldn't sleep all night yesterday and kept moving left and right cause of joy. I also never been overthinking like this before in my life. I spent the entire night thinking on how I'm gonna do it, writing a note, maybe making a video, my family's reaction. I felt joy, sadness, I was so terrified as well cause my family will be really devastated when I do that next day. Which today I noticed that my neck kinda hurts and I've been obsessed with touching my neck and keep gulping, and it kinda feels painful and uncomfortable esp when I was trying to sleep, and I kept thinking about it all day when I was studying
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Oh yeah I forget do any of you guys had a similar feeling to mine I wanna know your experience with this I can't be the only one feeling like this RIGHT!?!?