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my dad searched the trunk of my car for whatever reason and found the boxes. I didn't tell them I was keeping it under my bed. my beaker arrived shattered so I had nothing to measure with in my room. I didn't see anyone upstairs, so I tried to move it to a more hidden spot to buy time. of course my mom walked in while I was moving the sn and took it. now I've just been crying in bed all day. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I was honestly the happiest I've been in a long time when I thought I was going to die today. why do I have the worst luck. why does God make me suffer
 
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i'm so sorry that has happened to you ): you think you will be able to order it again, maybe this time to a po box or something like that? sending you hugs. i feel you because i too would be in so much pain if sn was taken away from me..
 
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i'm so sorry that has happened to you ): you think you will be able to order it again, maybe this time to a po box or something like that? sending you hugs. i feel you because i too would be in so much pain if sn was taken away from me..
i don't think they'll let me out of the house by myself for a while. i shipped it to an "amazon hub locker," which worked out well, but i wish i had gone with my first instinct to get rid of the boxes somewhere. i wish i were a better liar too. my mom almost believed it was for some cooking or health thing, but i broke down crying like a baby when they interrogated me.
 
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i don't think they'll let me out of the house by myself for a while. i shipped it to an "amazon hub locker," which worked out well, but i wish i had gone with my first instinct to get rid of the boxes somewhere. i wish i were a better liar too. my mom almost believed it was for some cooking or health thing, but i broke down crying like a baby when they interrogated me.
if they interrogated me about it, i probably wouldn't handle it well either... i think maybe you shouldn't lose hope to buy it again. for some time they will keep an eye on you, yeah, but not forever. so the best thing for now maybe is to be patient and not force things until you reach again some more freedom...i don't know your whole situation... so sorry if i say something wrong....
 
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if they interrogated me about it, i probably wouldn't handle it well either... i think maybe you shouldn't lose hope to buy it again. for some time they will keep an eye on you, yeah, but not forever. so the best thing for now maybe is to be patient and not force things until you reach again some more freedom...i don't know your whole situation... so sorry if i say something wrong....
i think you're right. thank you
 
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Sorry this happened to you. Maybe wait awhile and put it in a different box the next time.
Maybe like an electronic box???
 
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Sorry this happened to you. Maybe wait awhile and put it in a different box the next time.
Maybe like an electronic box???
good idea. the thing is i left the empty jungle box in my car (i didn't expect them to look in it for no reason), and i guess it said sn somewhere on it.
 
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good idea. the thing is i left the empty jungle box in my car (i didn't expect them to look in it for no reason), and i guess it said sn somewhere on it.
I would have a box ready when you pick it up. Then throw away the original box out before you get home.
 
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my dad searched the trunk of my car for whatever reason and found the boxes. I didn't tell them I was keeping it under my bed. my beaker arrived shattered so I had nothing to measure with in my room. I didn't see anyone upstairs, so I tried to move it to a more hidden spot to buy time. of course my mom walked in while I was moving the sn and took it. now I've just been crying in bed all day. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I was honestly the happiest I've been in a long time when I thought I was going to die today. why do I have the worst luck. why does God make me suffer
Most people don't know that SN can be used for suicide... how do your parents know what it is?
 
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