Anarcholoser
patron saint of denial
- Jan 8, 2021
- 59
Feeling so paranoid and anxious the past few days. I feel like everyone hates me and is out to get me, even one of my dogs (the other one I don't think is capable of hate or plotting so he's safe to be around at least). Tonight might be the night for SN. I've already taken klonopin twice today and will likely take more before the day is done because of how anxious I am. I know no one here cares but I don't really have anyone in my life who does either sadly. Even my own family is kind of exhausted from dealing with my mental health struggles over the past decade and I know finally CTB will relieve them of the burden of caring for me. I just wish things could have been different and I could have been a normal, healthy girl with friends, a partner, and a job.
